Chapter 2, Our Message Board.

On the next weekend, Shen Nianci stood on the road he must pass through, waiting for his arrival. However, when she saw him, her first reaction was to escape. So she pulled her friend and walked towards his school.

At that time, Shen Nianci still had a lot of courage. During the time when Li Yingze's class was having lunch, she dared to run to their classroom to deliver something to Li Yingze. As a result, she was scolded by their class leader. Shen Nianci directly retorted at that time, and Li Yingze was also present. The reason why Shen Nianci went to his classroom was because she saw that Li Yingze did not eat after school, so she bought bread and milk for him and sent it over. She later found out that Li Yingze hated drinking milk.

At the age of adolescence, overly straightforward words can easily make people feel embarrassed. However, Shen Nianci struggled for a long time and finally chose a more tactful statement: "Zeze, have you thought it over?"

That night, she couldn't remember what was said, only that two-thirds of the time was wasted and only a little bit of the road was left. They only exchanged a few words, as if they had reconciled that night. When they left, Shen Nianci said, "Remember to approve my friend's request."

Shen Nianci's words were exactly this. Li Yingze comforted her and told her not to overthink, saying that their squad leader was just like that. Shen Nianci felt warm in her heart after listening. She asked back, "Can you keep your distance from her?"

Li Yingze "Hmm" agreed, Shen Nian happily sent him to the dormitory, and went back to sleep herself. That night, she remembered that Li Yingze sent her a long essay, but she no longer cared about the specifics, only remembering one sentence: "I am not worthy of your love."

When Shen Nianci saw this post, her hands were trembling. She stood still at the school gate for a long time. Then, in a panic, she opened the QQ chat box and typed: "I'm sorry." These three words. She also sent many words of retention. Later, Shen Nianci often regretted it. Perhaps he didn't really want to break up at that time, but she gave him an excuse.

Shen Nianci's signature was "LYZ", while Li Yingze's message has become blurred over time, with only a vague memory of three letters, either XZY or YZL. She no longer remembers what Li Yingze replied to her message. In her hazy memory, she recalls needing to consider something, but after a month, there was still no result.

Li Yingze walked over, Shen Nianci turned directly and walked alongside him. It's almost winter, very cold, and there are hardly any people on the playground. The cold wind blew on Shen Nianci, but she didn't feel cold, instead, she felt a little excited and nervous.

Um? What's the matter?

During this time, Li Yingze turned back several times to look at her. Shen Nianci followed him anxiously. Suddenly, Li Yingze waved and stopped a bus. Before getting on, he glanced at Shen Nianci with a thought-provoking look. Shen Nianci became a little flustered. She actually had a bit of social anxiety and was afraid to shout "Driver, please stop, I need to get off" when they arrived at the station.

Later, Shen Nianci liked to follow behind him, at a distance neither too far nor too close.

After a while, Li Yingze finally replied with a soft "Hmm". It was unclear whether Shen Nianci was shy or simply nonchalant, as her voice was barely audible. However, Shen Nianci didn't think too much about it. She was just happy that he agreed. She happily walked in front of Li Yingze, occasionally turning back to look at him.

The homeroom teacher took her outside and asked her why she took leave and what reason she used. She had already forgotten because only he remained in her memory at that time.

March 1, 2017

As Li Yingze slowed down and followed behind her, they passed through an intersection. Li Yingze overtook her, but Shen Nianci's instinctive reaction was to step forward and talk to him. She doesn't remember what was said, only that Li Yingze bought her a bottle of jasmine tea, which is still at Shen Nianci's home. Even if it has expired, perhaps more than just that bottle of water has expired.

Just like this, it seems that every time Li Yingze turns around, he can see Shen Nianci's figure, whether it's after school, after class, or on the way to school. I remember not long after the start of the school year, Li Yingze, as a third-year student, had to review for fifteen minutes after evening self-study, while Shen Nianci, as a second-year student, had to review for thirty minutes. That night, Shen Nianci invited Li Yingze to the playground, and Li Yingze gladly agreed. As a third-year student, Li Yingze had to review for fifteen minutes after evening self-study, while Shen Nianci, as a second-year student, had to review for thirty minutes. That night, Shen Nianci invited Li Yingze to the playground, and Li Yingze gladly agreed.

On April 4th, 2017, right after April Fool's Day, which happened to be a weekend, she ran into Li Yingze. Shen Nianci tightly held the straps of her backpack, and Li Yingze silently followed behind her, accompanying her for a long time. Shen Nianci had been conflicted in her heart for a long time, and she still wanted an answer.

Shen Nianci hesitated for a long time and finally decided to confess, but she felt too straightforward and embarrassed. So she decided to play a game with Li Yingze. She left a message on his QQ space with the initials of the person she liked. Li Yingze readily agreed.

They are both very strange. Previously, Li Yingze always liked to walk behind Shen Nianci, about half a meter away. Later, Shen Nianci liked to walk behind him, also about half a meter away. Perhaps, in the midst of it all, some things were quietly changing.

Li Yingze followed behind her, Shen Nianci pondered a lot, and Li Yingze also slowed down, following behind her. She could even hear the sound of Li Yingze's clothes rubbing against each other as he walked. She only knew that he was very close to her. After crossing a narrow bridge, facing regret, Shen Nianci spoke first, "Zeze, are you still angry about yesterday's matter?"

At that time, she was truly happy in her heart, like a lost deer finding its way home. She felt much lighter on her feet as she walked along the road, and the chattering birds on the trees seemed to be happy for her as well.

What Shen Nianci cannot forget until now is probably a weekend in April 2018. Unwilling to give up, Shen Nianci wanted to gamble again. So, on a Saturday morning during morning reading, she took a leave slip and went to ask the class teacher who was guarding the morning self-study for permission to leave. The class teacher was a bit chubby, probably in his early thirties. He looked fierce, but Shen Nianci, with a nervous heart, still chose to gather up her courage and went. Holding a leave slip, she went to ask the class teacher who was guarding the morning self-study for permission to leave. The class teacher was a bit chubby, probably in his early thirties. He looked fierce, but Shen Nianci, with a nervous heart, still chose to gather up her courage and went.

Shen Nianci stood under her own teaching building. That evening, Shen Nianci still had to clean up. From time to time, she looked through the window and could still see the lights on in Class 3 of Grade 9, with only that lonely figure inside. Shen Nianci quickly finished cleaning and ran downstairs to wait for him. She watched as the lights in his classroom were turned off, and then he came downstairs. Finally, his figure appeared in Shen Nianci's line of sight.

Unintentionally, a glance revealed that Li Yingze was looking at her from his seat. Shen Nianci thought she had seen it wrong, and on her way to ask for leave, she repeatedly confirmed several times that Li Yingze was indeed looking at her. However, she found it hard to believe in her heart, not because she didn't believe it, but because she dared not.

She remembered that it was almost winter at that time.

However, the good times didn't last long. To be precise, it was only for a week, or less than seven days. Li Yingze posted a QQ status update, and Shen Nianci still remembers the sentence: "Actually, it's quite nice to be alone..." followed by three dots.

Shen Nianci, what is it that is trapping you?

In the autumn of 2017, Li Yingze's school, which was a junior high school branch of Shen Nianci's school, had to move back to Shen Nianci's school due to the demolition of the campus. Shen Nianci was extremely happy about this. On the first day of school, she prayed in her heart for a long time, hoping to meet him.

Her luck is very good. She really met him. Shen Nianci just passed by Li Yingze like that. After passing by, Shen Nianci could even feel Li Yingze's gaze, but she didn't dare to look back. She only dared to look back when he withdrew his gaze.

After morning self-study class, Shen Nian and Tu Shu Ci immediately rushed back to their dormitory to pack their things. Shen Nian's speed was very fast. Afterwards, she ran to the school gate and waited for him in a flash. She prayed in her heart ten thousand times not to miss him, not to miss him.

She only remembers that on the way, her elbow lightly touched Li Yingze's elbow, and that throbbing feeling remains fresh in Shen Nianci's memory.

Later, I don't know if it was out of habit or it became unimportant, but the number of times Li Yingze turned around decreased, and he even stopped looking up at their teaching building when he left the dormitory.

Why did Shen Nianci apologize? Because on that day, when she went down, Shen Nianci really wanted to see him and bought a lot of fruits. She waited at the station from twelve o'clock until six o'clock in the afternoon, but he still hadn't come. Shen Nianci was a little angry. She really hated waiting for someone. She sent something to Li Yingze, but she couldn't remember what it was. She only remembered the helplessness and sadness she saw in that dynamic.

Later, Shen Nianci regretted it a little. Perhaps he had urgent matters or was delayed by something on that day. At the time when he was extremely annoyed, he received Shen Nianci's questioning words. Anyone would feel uncomfortable in his place and no one wants to be misunderstood and blamed like that.

Li Yingze said a lot, but unfortunately, time has passed too long. Shen Nianci's understanding has become somewhat vague, including Li Yingze's attitude and feelings towards her, and whether she should remember or forget, given the blurred passage of time.

Shen Nianci doesn't know if Li Yingze really doesn't know or if he's joking with her. From his tone in the conversation, Shen Nianci realized that he really didn't know.

That night, Shen Nianci kept observing what he was doing. As expected, while everyone else returned to their dorms to wash up, he remained in the classroom studying, waiting for Shen Nianci to finish class. Shen Nianci was excited to death. Later, she thought, maybe Li Yingze wasn't waiting for her that night, but was simply studying. She didn't think it was likely, so she lied to herself, "He is waiting for me."

She could feel that Li Yingze had been looking at her for a long time, but she dared not meet his gaze. The two of them just glanced at each other like this. Later, when the car arrived at the station, Shen Nianci took the lead and got off. In fact, she only got off the car after seeing Li Yingze stand up.

Their fate is really wonderful. Li Yingze's teaching building is also on the fourth floor, which happens to be a right-angled shape. Shen Nianci sits by the window, and so does Li Yingze. Inadvertently, you can see Li Yingze's figure studying earnestly, as well as his appearance when he wakes up from a nap, when he is lost in thought, and when he listens attentively.

The term "Zeze" is unique to Shen Nianci, only she calls him that. It seems that Shen Nianci has left some mark in his life.

Shen Nianci often leaves with him, maybe going home, maybe going back to the dormitory, maybe going back to the classroom. As long as Li Yingze is there, Shen Nianci always finds a way to follow him.

And on the afternoon of the day before that night, Shen Nianci filled the notebook he "stole" from him with words he wanted to say and gave it back to him. He only took a few minutes to read it, hence the lengthy discourse.

Perhaps, Shen Nianci was too unwilling to leave, so she found a reason for herself and found a dignified way out.

However, that day she summoned up the courage and got on the bus some distance away from Li Yingze. The bus was already full of people, so she had to sit on the small platform behind the driver. The journey was less than twenty minutes.

Fortunately, her prayers worked. She saw Li Yingze and his companions coming out, so she followed behind him.

Shen Nianci stood in front of Li Yingze, with her back to him, waiting for his answer.

Their contact gradually decreased, but Li Yingze would still slow down and follow behind Shen Nianci every time they met. In fact, Shen Nianci didn't know if she was following him or if it just happened that they were going to school on the same route.