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The gravel on the floor has embedded itself into my feet, and I have lost all sensation

Actually, I just feel a little cold

When she drank that bottle of inferior white liquor, it was with a gambler's mentality. She clearly knew that she was allergic to alcohol, yet that night, she still tilted her head back and consumed it all.

At that time, what did he say? It seems he said this—so, Cheng Luoxun, you are not worthy of being a light beauty mermaid

Russell is my idol; she always speaks so incisively

When Kong Yan spoke of this matter, for the first time in her life, she asked him for a cigarette, and through the swirling smoke, she could not clearly see his face

Kong Yan looked coldly at the angry boy before her. In fact, compared to his gentle smile, she preferred his angry demeanor, as the latter appeared more genuine

In the time that followed, I remained in a state of out-of-body experience, and she did not speak either

Zhou Muchen watched her silhouette in silence, while Kong Yan's figure was always so proud and aloof. In that moment, he actually felt an impulse to go over and embrace her, to comfort her.

She smiled slightly, turned away quietly, and said, "You may leave."

There are many people in this world who will never understand that some costs, when put into practice, are far more devastating than merely speaking about them

The facts have indeed proven to be useful. The moment Zhou Muchen received the call, he decisively said, "Yan Yan, don't act rashly, I will be there immediately"

It is already dusk, and Zhou Muchen wanders aimlessly along the road, passing by pedestrians who all appear hurried, their faces etched with the fatigue of a long day.

At this moment, he is running for his promise, hoping she understands that even if the world is desolate, there will always be one person who will be your believer

Because when she shouted this sentence, all the passersby around her stopped, and they quickly formed a circle with me at the center

I stand at the conclusion of this love story, observing the path that love has taken, realizing that each step has been so lonely and arduous

I nostalgically recall the unfortunate light beauty mermaid from "The Little Mermaid"; as she walks step by step on the edge of a knife, does she not feel the same pain

Yet she cried, Kong Yan, who had never shown weakness before, had tears streaming down her face as Zhou Muchen stared at her

To be precise, it is a matter of countless moments and numerous boyfriends

Later, you said you sat on the railing waiting for her to finish school, and from the window, you saw her secretly drinking yogurt under the lifted desk lid, glancing at the podium in fear of being seen by the teacher; that image, you would never forget for the rest of your life

Zhou Muchen ran desperately, with only the tear-streaked face of Kong Yan in his mind

She shouted loudly over there: "Cheng Luoxun, is that you? What happened to you? Speak up, have you been kidnapped?"

What is referred to as being smart is probably the ability to act as if nothing has happened and return to the initial state of being alone

At the end of spring and the beginning of summer, the air is already filled with the essence of summer. Many girls eagerly change into short-sleeved T-shirts and skirts, revealing their smooth arms and calves, passing by me in small groups.

Zhou Muchen's expression was devoid of emotion, yet his eyes betrayed an unmistakable sense of disappointment and indignation: "Do you realize how absurd you are? Do you know how worried I was when I received the call that night? Do you know how terrified I was that you might die while I was taking you to the hospital?"

No matter how strong and resilient Kong Yan is, she is still a person. This statement carries too much weight for her, especially when it comes from the person standing before her—Zhou Muchen, who regards her as more important than anyone else in the world

She patted her forehead and laughed out loud

That afternoon, the three of us were very silent, as if time had stopped. I looked at Zhou Muchen, who was silent, and before the tears could spill over, I chose to escape

I saw a boy in a black shirt standing in the innermost circle closest to the center, watching me with great interest. In the open collar of his shirt, a finely crafted emerald Guanyin was prominently displayed.

Because she understands that, for me, this matter may be even more tragic than being raped

After much difficulty, I finally managed to stabilize myself a little and said intermittently: "It's me, I feel so miserable, I really want to die..."

That feeling is like the kite string that was originally held in hand is about to break

Eventually, I could no longer walk, so I simply sat down by the roadside, took off my shoes, tied the laces of both shoes together and hung them around my neck, walking barefoot.

She was quite generous, openly stating: "You can ask me anything, and as long as I am willing to answer, I will."

In fact, from that moment on, the wheel of fate began to turn, and all of us were manipulated by a great hand that could change the world, playing a youthful elegy in this city of universal entertainment

He sat down beside Kong Yan, and at that moment, I clearly felt a sigh pass through my heart. I knew that the last glimmer of hope within me had collapsed in a manner as swift and devastating as the destruction of withered trees.

After a long time, when everyone around had dispersed, I finally replied to her in a muffled voice: "I have completely ended things with Mu Chen."

She shouted loudly across the railing: "Zhou Muchen, where is my sister?"

On the night she was hospitalized, Zhou Muchen stayed by her side the entire time

At that time, I was unaware of everything that would follow, and all I wanted was to shout: "Zi, take me away!"

When Kang Jie arrived, I was squatting barefoot on the double yellow line. Every car that passed by slowed down, and those inquisitive gazes fell upon me from the windows. I ignored them all, forming a circle with my hands, and with all my strength, I held myself tightly.

He buried his face in the quilt, and no one knew whether he was crying or not

This tactic is formally known as "burning the boats".

Gradually, the congested traffic began to flow smoothly. In the driver's seat of A 6, a rugged male voice asked, "Who is that?"

Kong Yan's phone also costs 3250. While I was lost in thought, she sent a text message to Zhou Muchen. I do not know the content, but soon, Zhou Muchen appeared before us.

Now it was her turn to be stunned

To summarize what Russell said, it is: "The bystander is light, light as in easy."

It was that night that he learned that Kong Yan, who appeared to be infinitely glorious and unattainable in the eyes of outsiders, had been given to his current adoptive parents by his biological parents shortly after his birth

Zhou Muchen was momentarily shocked at first, but then he reached out and gently wiped away the tears on her face, softly saying: "Don't tell me you would cry for me, I do not believe in crocodile tears"

She raised her eyebrows and said, "You are asking so many questions, but I never promised to answer all of them. I will only answer the first two questions. First, I was hospitalized that night due to an alcohol allergy; second, Mu Chen once said that whenever I have something to deal with, I must notify him immediately."

When Kong Yan sat across from me in the Jingguo Dessert Shop with an air of assured victory, my heart felt as cold as the cup of coconut mango drink in front of me

At the same moment, a verbal conflict also erupted between Kong Yan and Zhou Muchen

If I previously only experienced heartbreak, at this moment, I feel that my life has endured an unprecedented double blow! In addition to the heartlessness of Zhou Muchen and Kong Yan, that pair of adulterers, there is also the foolishness from my best friend

Kang Jie ran up to me wearing a pair of green NIKE flip-flops, her dazed face appearing even more blank due to the confusion that filled it. Like Ma Jingtao from "The Plum Blossom Three Moves," she dragged me onto the sidewalk, shaking me vigorously as she asked, "What happened to you? Were you assaulted?"

Of course, she is the kind of high school student who is particularly beautiful

I have thought for a long time and have come up with a series of questions: "What exactly made you go to the hospital that night? Why did you call Mu Chen when you went to the hospital? What is your relationship with each other? You were together before, so why did you break up later?"

As he spoke these words, he gradually approached Kong Yan step by step. She was always so rational, calm, and inscrutable, that even as he drew closer to her, there remained a sense of distance.

When Zhou Muchen arrived, drenched in sweat, she smiled, and in that moment, she knew she was still the most important person.

She said: "Because they wanted a boy, but my sister is already 3 years old, so they sent me away. Man's plans cannot compare to heaven's plans; the third one is still a daughter. Is this retribution?"

But Muchen, do you know that when you talk about her, your eyes light up? That look is something I cannot forget

His appearance is as handsome as ever, yet I can only feel that this face is so unfamiliar to me

Am I being overly sensitive? That smile clearly carries a hint of disdain

She felt somewhat disheartened, yet at the same time, she coldly reminded herself that it was not a big deal; if her parents could abandon her, then what was a mere boyfriend

Her sophistication and decisiveness starkly contrast with my youthful naivety, making the difference evident. I almost want to stab a knife into my thigh to stop my lower body from trembling

Zhou Muchen looked at her face, which bore a seven-tenths resemblance to Kong Yan, and his heart suddenly experienced a sharp pang of pain. He did not have time to answer her question and hurriedly ran back in the direction he had come from, completely disregarding the astonished Li Shanshan in the car

Not long after Zhou Muchen left, Kong Yan also got up and left

He suddenly heard someone calling his name, the voice coming from an Audi A6 that was stuck on the bridge due to traffic congestion. In the passenger seat sat Li Shanshan, wearing a seasonal CKT shirt, her unadorned white face showing no traces of makeup, looking just like a high school student

She always says things that add insult to injury at the most inappropriate times

The pair of Converse shoes I bought not long ago is a bit tight on my feet, and every step I take is a piercing pain

After saying this, the sadness that had been suppressed before surged forth like a tidal wave, and I cried out loudly into my cheap phone: "Kang Jie, please come quickly, I feel like I'm about to die"

I still want to say something, but she gestured for me to stop, "Alright, Cheng Luoxun, I have only this much to say. If you have any further questions, I will not answer them."

The advice I can give you is to let go of these matters and live your own life well. You are not the first girl to question me like this, and certainly, you will not be the last.

During the brief wait of just over ten minutes, she recalled a few years ago when she visited the hospital to see her ill biological mother, inadvertently discovering that she had inherited her mother's alcohol allergy

Waking up in the middle of the night, seeing his haggard appearance, she held back her tears and softly said: "It was because I told you that someone has been pestering me recently, that you went to Bojun to find someone to fight, which led you to meet Cheng Luoxun."

She and Zhou Muchen jointly plunged a sharp blade into my heart, and from that moment on, the wound would incessantly ooze blood.

When I heard the silly voice of Kang Jie coming from my phone, I tried very hard to control my breath, but as soon as I opened my mouth, I couldn't help but sob, sobbing to the point where I had no strength left to stand, my whole body shaking as if I had been electrocuted

Time passes like a fleeting horse, and in these years where she stands alone and walks with a heavy heart, this boy was the only one who loved her wholeheartedly, the one who would always choose her without hesitation over anyone else. Yet now, even he has come to hurt her.

I looked at the smiling Kong Yan before me, and I knew very well that I could not do it

I still remember when I first told Zhou Muchen about this story, and when I mentioned that the light beauty mermaid ultimately transformed into rose-colored foam on the sea surface, I said with a hint of irritation: "If it were me, I wouldn't let that pair of scoundrels off so easily; I would take them down with me!"

In fact, the story does not stop; we are merely waiting until a certain day many years from now.

What is most amusing is that neither her biological sister nor her biological younger sister inherited this trait, yet it is precisely this abandoned child who has inherited this flaw

He remembers the first time Li Shanshan came to the school to find Kong Yan, saying, "My mother is ill and wants to see you," and the awkward expression on Kong Yan's face.

Li Shanshan glared at the bald man beside her and said, "What are you thinking? That is my sister's boyfriend"

However, he gently patted Kong Yan's shoulder and then stood up to leave. Throughout the entire time, Kong Yan did not turn his face again.

Even if the world is desolate, there will always be one person who will be your believer

When I thought I was very happy, I suddenly realized that happiness was merely an illusion, how cruel this is

At that moment, when he held her in his arms, he silently vowed that no matter how outrageous her mistakes were, he would certainly embrace and forgive her

There are so many people coming and going outside the glass window, and I watch the girls with happy smiles on their faces. Are they truly happy?

However, Cheng Luoxun, I actually quite like you, so I hope you will be the smartest one among them

Many years later, when I met Lin Yizhou, I finally understood why Zhou Muchen, many years ago, had so much silence