To Qianlan 01

I agreed to play a game with someone, and the stakes of the game captivated me. I sat under the moonlight, gazing at the night view, with no thoughts in my mind. I am too indifferent, overly cautious, and life has made me cold.

Do not go crazy!

As I walked across the street, I looked at the tall figure in front of me, reached out my hand to him, and he turned around to look at me, laughing: "Are you asking me?" "Mm."

I felt some confusion in my heart, turning my back to him, and did not speak

It turns out to be my tears

During the winter vacation, I did not take a job, but stayed at home to accompany my mother

I was a bit taken aback by Yin Shuitong's laughter, while Qi Beichen had already caught up with her. He grabbed her arm and looked at the unreasonable Yin Shuitong.

He turned to me with a radiant smile and said, "Hello"

Ah? I haven't logged into QQ for a long time. It took me a while to realize that he wanted me to agree to add him as a friend. I opened the screen with the penguin and found his request. I agreed.

I do not need the concern of others

In the early morning, I was quite surprised when Qi Beichen came to find me, as he seemed a bit uneasy.

Ah! Someone cares about you, you little girl...

Summer has passed, and autumn has also passed

Delete the mobile phone number, delete the text messages, what else is there

I gritted my teeth and let it go

He seems to be in a good mood, smiling with his teeth exposed, and主动问我: "Lanlan, do you have confidence in getting into university?"

You are, after all, responsible for me

... ... It's nothing. I straightened up, releasing my clenched fist, my palms turning pale from the exertion. I pushed the man away and pretended to walk forward nonchalantly

"Well... alright then," I said

I smiled and said: "Good morning."

Chai Quan moved the corners of his mouth, revealing a faint smile on his face

It can be said that Chai Quan is a bit cuter than I had imagined. He hasn't disturbed me recently, and I wonder what he has been busy with.

I took out my phone to check the time, when Chai Quan suddenly leaned over, scratched his head, and said: "Um... the nickname 'Upside Down Sea' is mine, can you agree to it?"

There is milk on the table

Qi Beichen burst into the room like a beast with red eyes, suggesting that they must have had a quarrel. Their arguments always end up affecting me

Well, everything will be fine tomorrow

I know you like this woman! I know! I hate you! I hate you!

You, if you are tired, go to bed early. Mother does not expect you to get into a prestigious school, just take care of your health. Mother turned the wheelchair towards the living room, and I saw two dishes placed on the table

I am not good at chatting with strangers. Ever since I scared off those three thugs in the factory, I have not spoken to Chai Quan as friends again

The sound came from around the corner, seemingly two people were arguing

To Qianlan

I stood at the back of a long queue waiting, and when it was my turn, I served myself some food and chose a seat to sit down.

I am actually very reluctant to get entangled with a madwoman. Regarding the matter between Yin Shuitong and Qi Beichen, I have not involved myself, yet Yin Shuitong has repeatedly sought trouble with me, which is truly frustrating

Oh, I got it

In this past month, the classroom has been devoid of the sounds of jokes and playful banter, and for a time, all the students have been studying with great intensity

Then, he and I walked slowly forward side by side, without speaking

I drink, I like drinking milk the most, hehe. Chai Quan quickly took the milk from my hand and held it tightly as if it were a treasure.

During the summer when I worked at the milk tea shop, I treated him just like an ordinary customer

Yin Shuitong, what madness are you up to again

I have already eaten, so I cooked an extra dish for you; you are lacking in nutrition. Mother, wearing her reading glasses, brushed her graying hair behind her ear.

In fact, Qi Beichen means nothing to me; his life is unrelated to mine

The fact is that we do not love each other; the only significance lies in my helping him get rid of Yin Shuitong, while he helps me get rid of Chai Quan. I know that Chai Quan treats me well; he has pursued me fervently and has done some considerate things for me.

For a long time, my life has been monotonous, consisting solely of studying diligently and working tirelessly

The actions and sounds have vanished, leaving only the scalding tears that continuously slide down my face

Mom, I have left the house

"Yesterday I dreamed that you were crying, so I came to see you." Chai Quan said softly while waiting for the traffic light at the intersection

I am confident

I was in a relationship with him until graduation, and he arranged for my mother to receive free treatment for a year, which was quite a bargain

I heard someone speaking, raised my head, and saw Qi Beichen standing at the school gate in his uniform, his face appearing blurred in the backlight

Oh, I see. I nodded, walked to the bus stop sign, and stood still

There is nothing

I, like a good student, said goodbye to my mother in the morning while taking a bottle of milk, and then at school, I completed one tedious exam paper after another. Qi Beichen did not approach me at school.

Yin Shuitong approached me with her hands on her hips, exuding an imposing presence

I walked home like a puppet, took the bus, got off the bus, walked to Tongluo Alley, and arrived at my doorstep

Who says that boys become clumsy in front of the girls they like? When I saw him reveal a mischievous smile, I realized that his scheme had succeeded

Waiting to be liberated

He shook his head and said, "I am different; no matter how hard I try, I cannot pass the exam. It is better to happily engage in something else."

Some misunderstandings are like a sharp dagger, severing the trust and warmth that have been painstakingly built between people

Qi Beichen, do you have any regard for me and the child? You have wronged us!

Whose tears fell down to the ground? I reached out to wipe my face, and it was all tears

in utter darkness

A gentle warmth enveloped me, layer by layer, as I sat by the table, eagerly devouring the rice in my bowl

I turned around, just about to say something, when the green light turned on. Chai Quan quickly took two steps forward, blocking the direction from which the car was coming.

Amidst the cacophony of voices, I caught a faint scent of gasoline emanating from him, gasoline scent

Dreams are the opposite. I suddenly wanted to respond to him

I hate crying for a man who is no longer related to me

He did not ride his black motorcycle today

At that time, I was unaware that he was watching my gray avatar day and night, waiting for my "approval"

It felt as if someone had suddenly stabbed my heart with a knife, I covered my chest and silently crouched down, the whole person felt suffocated and uncomfortable

How do you know it is mine

Mom, aren't you eating? I asked as I walked.

A sliver of moonlight seeped into the room where the lights were off, casting the surrounding objects in stark black outlines. My mother knocked on the door, calling me to come out for dinner

On weekends, sometimes he invites me out, and sometimes I stay at home alone watching television. Just like that, another winter has passed

A pair of white sneakers stepped on it, shattering the leaves into pieces.

The clouds above my head are slowly moving, and from the angle at which I am crouching, they appear particularly oppressive

The glow of the sunset spreads across the sky, a flock of birds flies by, and the distant sound of vendors calling out can be heard. As I reach the alley entrance, there is a boy standing there, his eyes fixed intently on me

Dizziness causes my head to ache

I watched his silhouette disappear into the vast, dense fog

Steam gradually rises from the fish soup, filling the room with the aroma of the meal

I do not know if Chai Quan is on the same bus as I am. When I got on the bus, he also jumped on, holding that bottle of milk, standing behind me

After finishing my meal, I took a shower and lay down early under the covers, covering my head. When I encountered unhappy events as a child, I would habitually hide under the covers, telling myself that if I slept for a while, everything would be better by tomorrow

After a long while, I realized someone was shaking my shoulder

I am waiting for him to speak

Chai Quan accompanied me all the way and left after escorting me to the classroom

Bang—The cafeteria suddenly fell silent

I once forgot that Qi Beichen is my boyfriend, because I do not like him at all. It took me a long time to accept this fact

I stared expressionlessly at the unfamiliar man before me, his mouth opening and closing as he repeatedly spoke to me, and I made a great effort to discern his voice

Chai Quan smiled and tilted his head: "Oh right, you are a 'top student', hehe. Since you are confident, I think you shouldn't work so hard during this period."

The unopened perfume bottle in my hand contains liquid that resembles blue tears; it is called "Butterfly's Poison," a luxury gift from Qi Beichen

Qi Beichen had his back turned towards me, making it difficult for me to discern his expression; I could only see his silhouette. Yin Shuitong stood in front of him, her eyes red and swollen. I seemed to have overheard something I should not have.

I find them very strange; they disregard the girls who like them, yet they are particularly eager to conquer those who are not interested in them. Qi Beichen and Chai Quan both want to conquer me

I turned around and retraced my steps until I reached the next intersection, at which point I could no longer hear their voices

The dusk envelops the outside world

After the class bell rang, no one rushed out of the classroom like wild horses to get food. I glanced at the time and took my lunchbox to the cafeteria

I frowned slightly, said nothing, and walked past him

After a while, Qi Beichen walked up to me and said, "Aren't you going to ask why? Don't you care about anything? Is your blood cold?"

However, I soon understood why Qi Beichen was so eager to break up with me

Our ridiculous relationship has not left behind anything worth remembering. Xiang Qianlan, you truly are a failure for being sad over a man who does not love you

I have been living this kind of life for almost three years

There is only one month left, I tell myself

Wednesday, a very ordinary day, after school, I was walking on a quiet road when I stopped just before making a turn

It has been a long time since I last saw Chai Quan

You were drunk that day

A girl walked in through the door, squinting as she surveyed the surroundings for a moment, her gaze piercing like that of a venomous snake. I could hear the sound of food being swallowed in my throat, as well as the unrestrained shouts of Yin Shuitong.

Do you ... ... drink milk

One drop, two drops, three drops

In four and a half months, we will face the most important examination of our lives, which will determine which university we attend. When a person has a goal, time always seems to pass quickly.

We have all left each other enough space

I began rummaging through the drawers, searching for things that did not belong to me. I lowered my head, feeling as if the gift in my hand was mocking me with laughter. I tore apart everything he had given me and threw it into the trash bin

Little girl, why are you crying? Is everything alright?

I tell myself that I do not care

I don't care, it's yours. No one else would do this to me except you. Now my parents are forcing me to terminate it, and you need to take responsibility

The gardenias have begun to emit their fragrance once again

He pondered for half a day and said to me, "Let's break up." There was still a month left until our agreement. I nodded gently and replied, "Mm."

Why do you not agree to me

Mother pushed open the door and saw me. I rubbed my reddened eyes and forced a lighthearted smile, saying, "It's so cold today." I turned my head away, walked into the room, and locked the door behind me

I opened the door and smiled at my mother, exclaiming, "I am so tired." Rather than addressing my mother, it was more of a release of my inner discontent.

I raised my head: "What do you want me to ask? I haven't forgotten that we were just playing a game between us." "Good! What a game," he said.

A leaf accidentally blown down by the wind fell to the ground

I felt as if the world was spinning around me; it took two minutes for the objects in front of me to gradually come into focus. I raised my head to look at the sky, and the surrounding silence was as still as death, slowly returning to sound.

"Little Hedgehog, you are truly kind!" He smiled shyly

The car rushed past before my eyes, the leaves rustled in the wind, and the wind suddenly swept away the warmth from my body, as well as the light before me