Extra, Courage at the Age of Eighteen.

After Shen Nianci sent the message, she immediately exited the interface, opened another software, and then quickly pulled down the status bar to turn on the "Do Not Disturb" mode. She was deceiving herself because she was afraid of not receiving a reply.

Later, Shen Nian made many friends, but there were always people telling her, "You seem very optimistic," and there were also people telling her, "You have many friends."

Thinking of this, her heart suddenly ached fiercely. Despite knowing the outcome, Shen Nianci still couldn't give up and insisted on asking him, wanting him to tell her the answer in person.

It's just that I didn't expect such a lame excuse, and Li Yingze would agree. Perhaps this is the reason why they haven't broken off contact for many years. Li Yingze won't refuse, while Shen Nianci is just the opposite, with a thick skin.

No matter what, Shen Nianci still can't let go. Maybe eight years is too long, and the future may be even longer, so she can't let go.

One night, Shen Nian tossed and turned in bed, and she remembered the lame excuse used by Li Yingze: "I want to write a book, can I add you?"

She is not thick-skinned, just unwilling to accept it, always holding onto fantasies, always feeling that as long as he doesn't say that decisive word, there is still hope.

He no longer understands what Shen Nianci says, nor does he understand her emotions. The person she tried so hard to catch up with has long since moved forward and is no longer standing still.

This diary was written by Shen Nianci when she was in the second year of high school. At that time, she was experiencing isolation. She always kept to herself and wrote a diary every day. The ending of each diary entry was always: "Li Yingze, I miss you so much."

Shen Nianci, since I have obtained the desired answer, let's bid farewell to eight years of youth.

Even so, Shen Nianci still finds it hard to forget him in her memory.

Li Yingze also responded to him, saying, "I should also apologize. I should have been more decisive at that time."

Goodbye, the shining youth.

Perhaps some words need to be spoken in person, so that there will be no more illusions.

It was just too late for Shen Nianci to make it clear, but she still apologized to him.

Looking at this message, Shen Nianci felt restless in her heart. She originally thought he wouldn't reply, but she didn't expect him not only to reply, but also to praise her.

If she could start over again, she would definitely turn around and leave the moment she meets him. She would definitely do it. Unfortunately, there is no time machine, no chance to start over again. Regret is just regret.

Looking at those diaries, Shen Nianci's tears fell uncontrollably. She gently touched those words, even just looking at them, she still felt heart-wrenching. Perhaps she had already forgotten how she had made it through that period of time.

Li Yingze moved forward while I remained in place.

He must say it himself: "I just don't like you, not even in death."

If time could start over, she probably wouldn't like Li Yingze anymore, never again.

I can't forget the way he looked in a white shirt. I can't forget his every frown and smile. And I can't forget the hope that Li Yingze brought to her in those lonely and helpless days.

At that time, she had already guessed that he had topped up the manual, bought a nice skin, and she knew that the only reason someone would fall in love with another game was because his girlfriend liked it.

She has been feeling lost for a long time. The person she had been desperately chasing in her youth has already drifted further and further away from her.

Shen Nianci always smiles and remains silent. Her optimism is just a disguise. Deep down, she is a decaying and rotten person, pessimistic, always worrying unnecessarily, and someone who can shed tears for no apparent reason.

She knows that when faced with his own thick-skinned behavior, Li Yingze will also choose to selectively ignore it.

Shen Nianci doesn't know how her girlfriend is doing, but the only thing she knows is that Li Yingze likes her very much.

Upon seeing this message, she seemed to have reconciled with her youth. That day, they talked for a long time, and she also learned that Li Yingze was in a romantic relationship. She felt a little lost and wanted to cry, but she could only hide under the covers and cry silently, like she did when she was seventeen.

She held a lucky mentality, clicked in to take a look, and found that it was indeed a reply from Li Yingze. She was somewhat happy because Li Yingze said, "Willing, it's really impressive to write about your youth."

After being indecisive for several days, Shen Nianci finally summoned the courage she had when she was 18 and sent a message to Li Yingze: "Zeze, would you be willing to read my youth story if I wrote it?"

Shen Nianci looked at the message, laughed, "What's the use of apologizing now? I'm already trapped."

And Li Yingze seems to never understand these things again, because he is very happy. Perhaps it was because God heard Shen Nianci's prayers that Li Yingze fell in love. She never knew what kind of girl Li Yingze liked, whether she was pretty, lively, optimistic, or excellent.

However, Shen Nianci's heart was empty, as if something had disappeared from her life. She felt sad, but what made her even sadder was Li Yingze's decisive words, which were eight years too late.

Shen Nian could not clearly articulate what he was feeling, he just felt uncomfortable.

At this point, she suddenly realized that her intense liking may have caused unnecessary trouble for Li Yingze, and that such intense liking felt more like harassment.

At that moment, Shen Nianci's heart trembled slightly, just like when she was seventeen years old and Li Yingze agreed to her friend's request again. She happily spun around on the road, as if experiencing the long-lost tremor of being seventeen.

Shen Nian's Farewell to Returning Home, she found her seventeen-year-old self in her home, it was a diary filled with densely written words. She spent an afternoon reading every single word in the diary without missing a single one.

Goodbye, Li Yingze.

That night, Shen Nianci couldn't fall asleep. She kept thinking, "If I really write it, would he be willing to read it?"

Although the mobile phone interface has changed, Shen Nianci has always remembered this matter in her heart. However, her hand kept clicking to exit the interface and open the QQ interface until a long time had passed. She accidentally entered another application and suddenly saw the red dot on the QQ interface.

Let's reconcile, Shen Nianci doesn't need to be entangled anymore.

However, none of this matters because she has nothing to do with it.

In her memory, Li Yingze never liked playing PUBG, and he hadn't been online for several seasons. Until one day, Shen Nianci saw him online in her friend list. She originally wanted to secretly watch, but Li Yingze closed the spectator permission.

Li Yingze is no longer the person who shares the same aspirations with her.

Perhaps in those years without any contact, Li Yingze had his own friends and lived a happy life. He was no longer alone and single.

That night, Shen Nianci's obsession was no longer as deep as before. She suddenly felt that Li Yingze was no longer the same as in her memory.