Partie 5

This expression, which makes me unable to resist falling for it, is the most annoying. I awkwardly averted my gaze and said as calmly as possible: "Thank you"

"Who to date? I am just an ordinary girl, without love, without a partner, and without any romantic interests. The only ones left are the two of you as friends. If you don't accompany me until midnight today, I will sever ties with you both." I shrugged, brushing away a slight feeling of loneliness in my heart

It is said that it can enhance one's luck in love. Xiao Che blinked and said, I specifically asked someone to go to the temple to pray for it

I reached out my hand and opened the gift box in front of me, where a pair of pink headphones lay obediently inside

Well, what Zhong Shenyan said does have some merit; sometimes, he is indeed quite composed. However, I am not interested in discussing any so-called reasoning: "I don't care; anyway, if Xiao Che is unhappy, I will flip their table."

So I raised my head to look ahead of Xiao Che—well, it really was an encounter with a ghost

You must tell him I am anxious

Entering McDonald's, I asked Ke Yuchen: "What do you want to eat?"

In fact, putting on a brave front will always make one suffer greatly

"Zhong Shenyan, are you being a bit meddlesome?" My anger shifted towards him, who had intruded midway.

The sound ceased, the vibrations disappeared, the name on the outer screen transformed into the symbol for a missed call, and faded away

Those beautiful little animals, so soft, with lives that are fragile and short, yet possess such brilliant and captivating splendor

The innate memory for self-protection that humans possess will gradually lead us to forget certain things

"You don't want to comfort me to make up for the pain of nearly shattering my forehead, do you?" I squinted slightly, eyeing him with suspicion

"Sour, still sour." Zhong Shenyan continues to tirelessly mock me

Song Qingxi, didn't you hear? I have broken up! As a friend, shouldn't you be concerned about me, accompanying me, serving me tea and water, and using warmth to heal the pain in my heart?

Ke Yuchen indeed understood my anxiety, patting my shoulder: "Don't worry, the situation arose suddenly, your reaction was just a bit too direct, it wasn't that obvious."

"But you have already tutored me, so of course I will treat you." I said, waving my wallet, "Don't worry, sister has money."

"Song Qingxi, what are you up to?" Zhong Shenyan glanced at me with suspicion, then followed my finger to look over. I could clearly sense that he was taken aback for a moment as well. I shook his wrist and asked, "Did you see it?"

You? Forget it. Lu Wen can’t possibly be unaware that you and Xiao Che have no chemistry, it’s as clear as day, just like you and me? Don’t be ridiculous.

Xiao Che's tone, when it does not sound desolate, is undoubtedly deceptive

I was not someone who placed much importance on grades; I had always been comfortably in the middle. However, the thought of being under Zeng Ting's gaze, with him in first place and Liu Ziyu in the top ten while I am at the bottom, makes me feel quite unhappy

Make everything transparent. Including love

It is a pity that Zhong Shenyan does not know whether he has been rejected by a girl, yet he completely disregards my warnings and hints, continuing to press for answers, even exuding a somewhat aggressive demeanor: "Don't think I don't know that Ke Yuchen has said he likes you."

Before I finished speaking, I heard the sound of the door being pushed open at the entrance of the classroom

I mockingly chuckled to myself, suppressing the bittersweet feelings that I had experienced countless times before

Because when I lit the candle and made a wish today, my wish was not "to reconcile with Zeng Ting," but rather "Song Qingxi, you must work hard to move on from your feelings for him, and stop having unrealistic fantasies."

When I asked the vice monitor Tang Shaohao for the classroom key on Friday, Zeng Ting was not present

I can only love in this way, and I can only love like this.

Zhong Shenyan, do all those adorable little girls who like you wear glasses? They always say how handsome and good-looking you are, making you seem like an angel. Xiao Che angrily tapped the table to express her indignation, "Clearly, you are just a devil!"

When I was dragged into the KTV room by Zhong Shenyan, I felt as though I had entered a different dimension in time and space

to lose face

Nonsense. Otherwise, I will hit you to see.

His gaze is sincere, and his expression is gentle

"Qingxi, I didn't mean to not say anything," Xiao Che said good-naturedly as he put his arm around my shoulder, his smile bright and cheerful. "It was just so sudden."

Love and eternity both remain still there

In summary, when the time reached 5:30 PM, I exclaimed that I was hungry and pulled Ke Yuchen out of the classroom

It is not possible. Although I did my utmost to confess to him, creating opportunities to go on dates, and even stubbornly choosing a subject I am not good at just to be closer to him, it still did not work. He simply does not like me, and no matter how hard I try, it still feels very difficult. I realize that I have no chance of success at all. " I was almost overwhelmed with sadness, " Ke Yuchen, do you think I am very foolish? " Ke Yuchen, do you think I am very foolish? "

"Actually, it's not a big deal..." Xiao Che said hesitantly

But that is because he thought I did not like him

Face me with the same coldness as you do, and simply and decisively announce the death sentence of my feelings

His gaze felt devoid of warmth, and there was no trace of emotion; then, in the next moment, what was imprinted on my retina transformed into a silhouette

Goodbye is spoken so lightly, as if it were air, yet why can I not breathe

"Sour, truly sour." Zhong Shenyan is clearly mocking me

If Zeng Ting were to ask you to heal the wounds of his soul, would you still have this attitude

I just feel that your happiness is not a failing exam paper; it is merely an assignment that you have yet to complete. Ke Yuchen tapped on the table, saying, "Whether it is assignments or emotions, isn't perseverance your greatest strength? No matter where it is applied, there will always be some gains.

This is also something that cannot be helped

Huh? I looked at him in astonishment

After the movie ended, Zhong Shenyin intended to take Xiao Che and me home, but Xiao Che said he had something to discuss with me. Thus, we unitedly insisted on bidding farewell to Zhong Shenyin, although he firmly defined our actions as expulsion

Now she is holding hands with Lu Wen, gazing at each other affectionately, without even giving a greeting in advance, which leaves me in a difficult position!

I had not finished my sentence when Zhong Shenyan interjected: "It's the one that is said to enhance romantic luck."

But if he does not know, or if he does not feel it, then what loss is there for him, in fact

I fear you are being insincerely polite

"Hey, have some backbone, will you?" I shouted with my hands on my hips, startling a stranger who had just come out of the adjacent room and was passing by us to go to the restroom.

"To be honest, you are very cute, and you should have confidence in yourself." Ke Yuchen smiled faintly, unfazed by my sarcasm, "It is his loss for not holding onto you."

Are you all out for a stroll? Liu Ziyu's voice interrupted the thoughts that were swirling behind my smile

There are many things that are difficult to describe

Could you please keep a distance from me? Those who have rejected me do not need to appear within my line of sight when I am feeling awkward.

I let out a cry and instinctively grasped the wrist of Zhong Shenyuan beside me

I shot a look at that boy that clearly said, "You are making a mountain out of a molehill," successfully driving him away from our territory. I continued to press Yao Xiaoche for answers: "Didn’t you say you had cut ties with him?"

It is better to leave, as this way I will not see Zeng Ting and will not ponder why his expression carries a hint of panic

I am truly going to go crazy. When did I become the perpetrator

Are you messing with me

It is clearer than ever that one must truly let go of the expectations and love that have been carefully built along the way.

You experience heartbreak three hundred sixty times a year, what is so unusual about that

What is warmth? Is it being directly dragged into a taxi and heading to a KTV? I feel that being treated this way, my lack of energy is completely justified

Hmm. Little Che nodded.

I took the amulet that Xiao Che had removed from his phone, pushed Zhong Shenyan aside, opened the door to the room, and then pushed Xiao Che inside: "enjoy ~"

"It's hanging, and I've heard that this is really effective," said Xiao Che

I can only throw out one sentence: "Zhong Shenyin, you have truly reached a level of shamelessness."

However, in the space where he is present, even my breathing rhythm is different from usual, how could I possibly treat him as if he does not exist. Yet, the moment he appears, I immediately leave, always feeling as if it is a sign of weakness.

We all have a wound in our hearts. It may not be fatal, and on the surface, we may even appear quite lively, but deep down we know that it cannot be healed and will not be concealed

Leaning against the backrest of the taxi, I unconsciously drew meaningless lines on the car window, trying to dispel the turmoil in my heart. Zhong Shenyan truly understood my despondency: "I assure you, Sang Ting will not show up, and Liu Ziyu will not go either. The people who will be at the KTV today are not familiar with them."

What was the purpose of his phone call? Clearly, after the "breakup," he has never called. Initially, I couldn't help but send him messages, but gradually he stopped replying, and then after I stopped sending messages, all communication was completely cut off

I understand, within the smile lies an unfathomable loneliness, struggling to conceal the truth, with emotions disguised by performance

Moreover, what is most outrageous is that Liu Ziyu is also by Chen Ting's side

"You should have said so earlier." I shook my head and handed it back to her, "Here, take it back."

"Huh?" I hurriedly covered Ke Yuchen's mouth and said in a voice that was almost a whisper, "How did you know!?"

Watching him chat and laugh with others, while feeling an indescribable pang of bitterness inside, I certainly understand. That profound sense of helplessness and resignation, I also comprehend. Therefore, even though I strive to find some words to comfort Xiao Che, my mind is a blank.

Xiao Che said that one day I would understand that kind of happiness, but she was wrong; I truly have no chance to understand it.

"You said that 'perfect' doesn't count; it only counts if Qingxi says so." Xiao Che looked at me and asked, "You don't have any other appointments to transition to today, do you?"

Understood, understood. Xiao Che displayed a dismissive attitude, clearly not wanting to discuss the matter of Lu Wen with him

Perhaps many years later at a class reunion, he will be drunk, and I will take him home, or call the person he loves to take him home. When he gets married, I will be invited to attend, and I will seriously put on a standard suit to witness his happiness

Reluctant to part, unable to let go, the most romantic song on Earth. I fear that the overly surreal happiness is merely borrowed from you... The ringtone continues to ring, the song flows without pause.

This is to be credited to me

"Song Qingxi, you can't really be together with your senior, can you?"

He not only howls, but he does so as if he is truly justified in his actions

There was not a hint of jest in Zhong Shenyin's words, which left me magnificently astonished. After scrutinizing his face for quite some time, I said in horror: "Zhong Shenyin, are you serious? Do you like Xiao Che?"

I am truly the happiest person in the world

However, it is clearly one's own choice

I am willing not to love you, for all the joy and sorrow are so superfluous.

Even though remembering is always easier than forgetting, if one is cruel enough and strict enough with oneself, there will come a day when one will forget such an excessive fondness, it will surely happen

"You have no right to interfere with me." I know that my attitude can be considered as a mix of embarrassment and anger, but there is nothing I can do about it. I hurriedly closed the exercise book, not wanting him to see my numerous mistakes in the answers.

Song Qingxi, you truly have no intelligence. Of course, I am just joking

Moreover, Xiao Che has already arrived. "Zhong Shenyan shook the phone in his hand, "Lu Wen will go, and Jiang Mei will also go. Can you bear to let Xiao Che face the intimate situation between Lu Wen and Jiang Mei all alone?

Ke Yuchen, you can really go preach now. Or perhaps write a book of "Chicken Soup for the Soul" instead

Learning is very important, and concentration is also very important

Is it like this... I gently bit my lip, but what if things do not change, what if they remain the same forever, what then

"It sounds easy to say, but you must still feel sad, right?" I reached out my hand and embraced her

Do not pay attention to him

Yao Xiaoche is clearly a gentle and cherished person. She, unlike me, is more understanding, more composed, knows how to endure and yield better than I do, and is also more empathetic towards others. But why do her feelings also end up resembling a tragedy

The words he spoke to me by the seaside leapt into my heart once again

Can the pain of Zhong Shenyin be on the same level as our pain... However, since we are all useless anyway, let's count him as one, it is a concession to him

If given the choice, I would indeed want to meet him again

I want to naturally pretend not to see the possibility of taking a detour, as it may be rejected. After all, the relationship between Liu Ziyu and me is, in a certain sense, still quite harmonious

I do not know. I did not say.

Without any courtesy, I took it and bit the straw: "Ke Yuchen, am I very foolish?"

It seems that Zhong Shenyan does not care at all whether my soul has wounds— even if my spirit is thriving and unscathed, he probably intends to add a touch of crimson to my lonely heart through his actions

Well, happy

What new spectacle will the lovesick man Lu Wen and the resentful woman Jiang Mei present this time

Now, even though I clearly know it is impossible, I still cannot forget myself. It is truly disappointing

Xiao Che raised her head, wiping her tears with the back of her hand, and said with a slight nasal tone from crying: "It must be that guy Zhong Shenyan, always appearing at such an annoying time."

I strive to cultivate a feeling that is closer to "comfort," and I pat Zhong Shenyin's shoulder in a very brotherly manner

"Ha, let him enjoy himself." I did not hide the sarcasm in my smile, "When Jiang Mei encounters someone with a higher rating and more practical value, I will see how he cries.

Cast aside those hidden thoughts and small wishes, ignore them.

Is there? I thought about it, and it seems so. I am your best friend, after all. However, the one who is ultimately sad is you. Just endure it slowly.

Uh, speaking of which... it seems that there were a few times when he was looking at you while you were gazing out the window at the sky. Zhong Shenyin was still trying to persuade me, to prove that his actions in front of Zeng Ting, which made it difficult for me to save face, were based on absolute justification and correctness.

Climbing up to the second floor of Pizza Hut, I looked towards our usual spot by the window

It is evident that I did not see incorrectly. Moreover, it is not just holding hands; the gaze exchanged between Yao Xiaoche and Lu Wen is so intense that it could almost burn me.

Therefore, it is truly necessary to consider making preparations to keep one's emotions sealed away

Crying is acceptable; after crying, whether to give up or to continue is entirely one's own choice

The first person I liked in my life will not like me back

"What kind of amulet?" Xiao Che looked at me in confusion

However, Xiao Che completely ignored him, took out his phone, and while putting on the amulet, said: "Hmph, I don't believe this can't enhance love luck, I'll use it myself"

No matter how empty it may seem, being here, being together, this is love for me

Although I am not certain, I always feel that in that moment, there was a fleeting glimpse of hurt in Ting's eyes

Therefore, it is probably normal that I am somewhat unable to keep up with the general level expected in a science class

I can see an endless compassion in her eyes

Then I felt my shoulders gradually becoming soaked by her tears

However, he does not like me

Singing a song and you forgive him? Yao Xiaoche, you are so infatuated that you have lost your intelligence. He was easily seduced away by Jiang Mei, and you saw it all!

Jealous of their feelings, so simple and direct, smooth and not too sorrowful. And I, standing alone in place, overshadowed by the shadow of someone who has never even noticed me, wanting to leave, yet pathetically reluctant to part.

It was a very ordinary gathering, and from any perspective, I did not want to attend.

However, today is your birthday, and I do not want to bring up topics that might make you unhappy. Perhaps we should postpone it until another day

There are many empty seats by my favorite floor-to-ceiling glass window, so I walked over and sat down

But whenever such a thought of regret arises, another part of myself questions me: "Really? Song Qingxi, is that truly what you think?"

Yet there was no mood to do anything, merely habitually lying on one's seat, watching the entire world shrouded in fine rain

What makes him think that you like him today?

Alright, although it is somewhat patriarchal, I agree. I nodded and glanced at the colorful variety display board: "I would like a chocolate milkshake, large size, and a cheeseburger, along with a small portion of fries, that will be all."

Indeed, the future is always unpredictable. The satisfaction derived from fantasies has become overwhelmingly immense, thus when fantasies confront reality, they are ruthlessly shattered, and the ensuing disappointment inevitably becomes sharp and piercing.

Xiao Che also smiled very openly

Even if everything will start anew, cycling through again, and even if the heart must still experience the ups and downs of anticipation, ecstasy, disappointment, and sorrow, the fact that I can meet him remains the happiest thing in my life at present. Even though this feeling is not mutual between him and me

In a certain sense, it is akin to love

Two months have passed since the beginning of the second semester of the second year of high school. The papers for the third academic assessment have been distributed, and I find it hard to accept my own score. I truly do not want to look at the faces around me that appear so at ease.

Zhong Shenyan's taxi disappeared around the corner, and I pulled Xiao Che and directly asked: "You have been absent-minded and distracted all day, what is going on?"

"Zhong Shenyan, don't think that a pair of headphones can buy me off. This is my birthday gift, and I have not yet forgiven you." I took out the headphones

One cannot deceive oneself the least, can one? Therefore, one can only raise the white flag in honesty to that self.

Recently, I sometimes think that it would have been better if I had never met Zeng Ting

I sincerely apologized to Ke Yuchen for canceling our plans to visit the aquarium. Fortunately, as a senior, he was not upset at all and even told me, "Call me anytime you want to go." This made me feel somewhat relieved from the frustration caused by Zhong Shenyan's persistent behavior. However, I really have no mood for gatherings or anything like that

I had originally made plans with Ke Yuchen to visit the Underwater World, which was hosting a special jellyfish exhibition. Ke Yuchen had already gone to observe it once and the photos he took were so stunningly captivating that I insisted he must accompany me to see it as well.

When seeing a psychological test in a magazine, one will certainly want to try it out. However, when the answers do not meet my expectations, I tend to go back and play it again to achieve the desired result

Striving to engage the muscles of my cheeks, I immerse myself in creating a natural and warm smile. I think, this day of practicing my acting skills is truly enough.

Qingxi, you are even angrier than I am

Did I not say that I had everything planned out! Zhong Shenyin raised his hands in surrender, wearing a mocking expression that clearly conveyed his defeat to you all

Zeng Ting, you shouldn't be in a position to say such things

Qingxi

For example, the joy of love. For example, the pain of loss

Moreover, this situation has left me utterly at a loss—after school, in the classroom, it is only him, me, and Zeng Ting.

"We should keep our distance, but not today, as it is Song Qingxi's birthday." Zhong Shenyin said with a nonchalant smile, "I have it all planned out. We will casually have some lunch here, then in the afternoon we can go shopping. Song Qingxi, feel free to tell me anything you like. I have made a reservation at a Western restaurant for dinner, so we can enjoy a proper birthday feast, light some candles, have some cake, and then go watch the 10 o'clock movie. Perfect."

"Why are you ignoring me?" Zhong Shenyin extended his hand to block the screen I was intently focused on, questioning me.

"Zhong Shenyin is used for enslavement here, just ignore him. Here, this is for you." Xiao Che took out an amulet-like object from his bag and handed it to me, "You can hang it on your phone."

Now, even though I clearly know it is not possible, I still cannot forget myself. It is truly disappointing

The McDonald's with air conditioning, separated from the bustling street outside filled with traffic and heat by just a sheet of glass and a sidewalk, feels like two completely different worlds

I swear, I absolutely did not missee; Zhong Shenyan actually cast a profoundly disappointed glance at me!

Even if it is not on a beach, drawing a huge heart and writing the names of two people, standing in the water waving a fairy wand, I still feel that at the very least it should be on a Ferris wheel where he holds a small cake for me to make a sincere wish—of course, the wish is to always be together

One must experience it bit by bit, feel it little by little, and endure it gradually

Forget it, there is no need to hold a grudge against him. First, he is still a friend of mine, and second, his intentions are not entirely unforgivable.

"Please accompany me to buy books tomorrow," Xiao Che said as he walked over and gently placed his hand on my shoulder

If someone can be infatuated, can I not be envious? I glared at him

If you also feel that such a score is insufficient, I can help you with tutoring as well He lightly tapped twice on my exam paper with his slightly bent fingers on his right hand

Indeed, that is why I did not go. Later, I learned that Jiang Mei accompanied him. Xiao Che unconsciously sighed, "During those few days, they would leave together right after school."

When seeing a psychological test in a magazine, one will certainly want to try it out. However, when the answers do not meet my expectations, I tend to go back and play it again to achieve the desired result

Ke Yuchen leaned close to my ear and whispered very softly, "Do you like him?"

If I had known from the very beginning that there would be so many subsequent events, rather than just the simple notion of being in the same space as Zeng Ting, where I could see him whenever I wanted, would I still have forced myself to choose and stubbornly selected the sciences?

Well, since Xiao Che has given me a way out, it would be quite inconsiderate of me not to follow along immediately: "Yao Xiao Che, should I wish you a hundred years of harmony, eternal unity, a hundred sons and a thousand grandsons, and all your wishes come true?"

You... completely unaware of the myriad thoughts that surged through my mind in an instant, walked over, glanced at the open exercise book on my desk, and asked, "Extra lessons?"

Well, Zhong Shenyan is sometimes quite manly. At least at this moment, he straightforwardly made me realize that my anger, aside from feeling disappointed that Xiao Che reconciled with Lu Wen without consulting me and being worried about Xiao Che to the point of being exasperated, also includes a part that I was not even aware of, which is my loneliness reflected by her happiness. There is even a small, tiny bit of jealousy that is somewhat ugly, which I would not have noticed at all if it weren't for Zhong Shenyan pointing it out. There is also a part that I was not even aware of, which is my loneliness reflected by her happiness. There is even a small, tiny bit of jealousy that is somewhat ugly, which I would not have noticed at all if it weren't for Zhong Shenyan pointing it out.

I originally thought it would be difficult to tell myself "this is the end." However, unlike before when I would call and text every day, I have gradually gotten used to it. I think in the future, the days without contact will far outnumber the days when we communicated daily. The calmness that slowly permeated Xiao Che's voice instead provided me, who did not know how to comfort her, with solace. "To say that I do not feel regret or loneliness is to deceive myself. But I believe that those moments of happiness once belonged to me; as long as I remember those joys, that is enough for me, that is how I feel." I think in the future, the days without contact will far outnumber the days when we communicated daily. The calmness that slowly permeated Xiao Che's voice instead provided me, who did not know how to comfort her, with solace. "To say that I do not feel regret or loneliness is to deceive myself. But I believe that those moments of happiness once belonged to me; as long as I remember those joys, that is enough for me, that is how I feel."

He turned to the side, carefully took a gift box from his bag placed beside the sofa, and pushed it in front of me with a cautious demeanor: "The ceramic headphones from your favorite brand, Audio-Technica, a birthday gift"

Hmph, isn't it just homework, isn't it just science, isn't it just an exam

But there seems to be no way, right

After not answering his call, there has been no further communication between us. In the classroom, the atmosphere remains indifferent to each other. The only difference from before my birthday is that I used to pretend we were unrelated, but now I genuinely wish to be unrelated—although my body is filled with emotions, and if I inadvertently fall into memories, the moisture overwhelms my pupils, making it impossible to sink into dreams.

Life cannot be lived again, and self-deception is impossible

That is good. I let out a long sigh, glanced at the profile of Zeng Ting, who was still engrossed in writing something, and then I opened the exercise book again: "Let us continue"

Carrying a tray of food, Ke Yuchen sat down in the seat opposite me and handed me the chocolate milkshake

Unexpectedly, the source of my unhappiness, for some unknown reason today, is walking straight towards me

Suddenly, I feel like crying

It has become a thorn in my heart, making me feel extremely uncomfortable. Wasn't it 曾庭 who expressed, "I'm sorry, I don't like you, please don't like me either, thank you"? So why should I be ridiculed? From the moment I first saw him, I liked him. I mustered the courage to speak to him, wanting to accompany him. In the end, I severed all possibilities, yet I still wish to see him every day. I still like him so much now. Truly, I am so foolish. From the moment I first saw him, I liked him. I mustered the courage to speak to him, wanting to accompany him. In the end, I severed all possibilities, yet I still wish to see him every day. I still like him so much now. Truly, I am so foolish.

Zhong Shenyan's words came to a halt as the waiter approached, and I smiled at the cute female waiter: "Could you please get me a matcha ice cream"

Or rather, it is entirely deserved, Song Qingxi

What is this supposed to mean? Do you think I have held back the class and affected his pride as the class leader? I am not even the last in the ranking. Is such ambiguous talk as "Do you want to apply to the same university?" a form of indirect encouragement or a veiled sarcasm?

"Not at all, your foundation is solid. I have mentioned before, you just lack a bit of focus." Ke Yuchen spread ketchup over the fries and handed them to me

It is my birthday

Zhong Shenyan, this guy whose IQ sometimes plummets to negative numbers, actually asked me such a question directly in the classroom

There is nothing to criticize about a normal family participating in activities

He has long understood what I want to say, and he is fundamentally unable to respond in any way, so there should be nothing for us to say to each other

Forget about it, everyone must learn to digest the teasing of friends

But he confessed to me..." Xiao Che slightly raised her head, looking at me with an infinite girl-like expression, "He confessed to me through singing."

"I believe your biggest problem is not a lack of foundation, but rather a lack of concentration," said Ke Yuchen, striking my forehead mercilessly with the pen in his hand for the one thousand and first time.

"Zhong Shenyan, if you do not speak, no one will think that your tongue has been cut off." I shot him a fierce glare, then subtly gestured with my eyes towards the direction where Zeng Ting was, warning him to stop.

Yao Xiaoche, how are you doing now? I poked her directly in the chest, fully embodying an accusatory demeanor. "Is this how friends behave? You don't need to inform your best friend when looking for a boyfriend, right? Your life has nothing to do with me, right? A few days ago, the one who dramatically claimed to have broken up with Lu Wen to gain my sympathy wasn't you, was it? Yao Xiaoche, quickly confess honestly, what is your current situation with Lu Wen?" Yao Xiaoche, quickly confess honestly, what is your current situation with Lu Wen?

Is it really that obvious? Damn, Liu Ziyu wouldn't have noticed it too, would she? Surely the whole class has noticed, right? My goodness, it can't be that the whole world knows, can it?

Forget it, I have no chance to understand. I shrugged my shoulders

Uh... it's just... oh, did you see that

If only I had not fallen for him

Ke Yuchen brushed my hand away: "Please, it's too obvious. Even a capillary can see through it."

Hmph, that's a fallacy. Jealousy is also based on a certain emotional foundation, alright? Zhong Shenyan, where did you see that Zeng Ting would be jealous of someone pursuing me?" I flipped through the menu and waved to the waiter not far away.

"Are you really allowing Jiang Mei to treat your tolerance as her shameless leverage?" I was much more agitated than Xiao Che, "Yao Xiao Che, you clearly like Lu Wen, how can you be so passive?"

I ultimately took out my phone from my pocket, and could not help but begin to doubt my eyesight again—the name flashing on the screen was undoubtedly "Zeng Ting".

"Not at all." Ke Yuchen looked at me, appearing very sincere

"It hurts!" I rubbed my forehead, pouted, and glared at him, "Did you really hit me?"

I cannot help but deeply love Yao Xiaoche, yet because she regards me as her best friend, I dare not express it, fearing it would disrupt the balance of our friendship and that I would no longer be able to support and accompany her in close proximity in the future

I simply resumed the habit of arriving at school early

"No..." My left hand still held onto his wrist tightly, while my right hand was raised, pointing towards the sofa in our room. "Hey, do you think I am neurotic, seeing things?"

I released Zhong Shenyuan's wrist, quickly walked over, grabbed Xiaoche's arm, and directly pulled her outside the KTV private room, regardless of whether it would scare her, disrupt their passionate intimacy, or even frighten Lu Wen.

Life cannot be lived again, and self-deception is impossible

He proudly pushed open the door to the room, stepped out, leaned against the door frame, arms crossed, wearing a look of complete satisfaction: "I went to play ball with Lu Wen, and accidentally revealed Xiao Che's unwavering secret about him, so... um."

I am not talking about homework... I took the French fries and stuffed them into my mouth

But there seems to be no way, right

It is a pity that my feelings for him are different from my feelings for Zeng Ting. Therefore, no matter how good he is, there is no need for me to feel any melancholy.

"Ally, you are really strict with Zhong Shenyin," Xiao Che said with a smile, patting my face. "I have truly thought it through; it is simpler for some things not to happen. In this world, no matter how much you like something, there may come a day when you no longer like it, or something you like even more may appear. Therefore, for some matters, it is indeed more correct for them not to occur."

Whenever I close my eyes, I can always see the expression of hesitation on Ting's face as if she wants to say something but holds back

"Zhong Shenyan, don't create more trouble." Xiao Che gently adjusted my bangs, "Qingxi, whether you are infatuated or not... when the person you like confesses to you, you will understand."

The voice that interrupted my coercive interrogation belongs to Zhong Shenyin

But he might misunderstand ... ...

Ke Yuchen released his hand, and I lowered my head, not knowing why I felt so awkward

"Song Qingxi, this is not very good." Zeng Ting stood up, shouldering his bag while adopting a sincere tone, "Knowing that others like you and still behaving ambiguously, isn't that a bit unfair to them?"

This is quite depressing

No need, I won't disturb you. Liu Ziyu pointed at Zeng Ting and said, "We also have someone we are meeting for dinner."

I know that perhaps I will fall in love with someone else. Maybe I will like someone in the future even more than I liked Zeng Ting. But every person that comes after will no longer be him. That pure, first-time joy and anticipation, the fluttering of the heart, will never return.

In fact, having a boyfriend like him would certainly bring great happiness

Two weeks ago, Lu Wen asked me to go to the pet store with him to look at cats, as he wanted to adopt a cat

"I am happy to be spiteful." Without any mercy, I stepped hard on his foot, watching him scream, "It hurts so much," and I finally laughed heartily.

At that moment, the phone rang, and the sudden sound startled both me and Xiao Che.

Zhong Shenyan insisted that I go to the gathering with him, disrupting my plans for the weekend afternoon that I had already arranged

Xiao Che bit her lip: "Lu Wen and Jiang Mei might be together"

During holidays, the streets are always bustling with crowds

Ke Yuchen went to queue for food, I washed my hands and looked around at the seats in the store

"Let it be a misunderstanding then." Xiao Che adopted a posture of resignation and sighed softly, "When he invited Jiang Mei to go along, I already knew. To Lu Wen, I am probably no different from Jiang Mei, nothing special, nor irreplaceable, just an ordinary classmate, or merely a friend."

Hmm. I nodded slightly and smiled at her and Zeng Ting, the acting was perfect

Cut, at most nine to one

Although I can be quite bold at times, I still need to maintain a sense of dignity

The vibration felt tightly grasped in hand is akin to holding one's own heart

I have experienced heartbreak 360 times, and experiencing it once with you is equally painful! Even if the degree of sadness is not a perfect 50-50, it must be something like 30-70

You two truly do not know how to appreciate the blessings you have, surrounded by someone as considerate and thoughtful as me, who understands the psychology of men and excels in matters of love. Yet, you remain ungrateful and fail to make good use of this, which is truly a waste of a precious opportunity

"Miss, please lower your voice; this is a public place." Zhong Shenyin reasonably countered Xiao Che's indignation, "Of course, the young girls who like me do so because I have level and style, not to mention my high taste, and I also happen to look quite good."

What do you want to eat? He looked at me, I will go buy it

"I said that every time you space out, I will hit you once. I am very good at keeping promises." Ke Yuchen smiled without a hint of guilt, then leaned in to lift my chin, examining my forehead, "Ah, it's red. Does it really hurt?"

I am so scared... Regardless of whether it is true or not, Xiao Che will not like you, and this is the same principle as my not falling in love with you. Please accept my condolences.

What business is it of yours? My tone carried a hint of anger; is he my friend or an undercover agent sent by my rival? Please get your facts straight, Young Master Zhong

The issue is that her expression is not at all one of "it's no big deal." I put on a serious face and said, "Yao Xiaoche, are we friends or not? If you have something to say, just say it."

I simply do not want to engage in dialogue with you. Opening his hand, I connected the call to Ke Yuchen.

Jiang Mei? I am truly surprised. Although she is said to be quite close to Lu Wen, I cannot believe that Lu Wen is unaware of Jiang Mei's "pragmatism" regarding relationships. Moreover, everyone has always had an unspoken understanding that, despite the thin veil between them, Lu Wen and Yao Xiao Che clearly like each other and are destined to be together. Who would be so unreasonable as to disrupt their bond out of nothing? Moreover, everyone has always had an unspoken understanding that, despite the thin veil between them, Lu Wen and Yao Xiao Che clearly like each other and are destined to be together. Who would be so unreasonable as to disrupt their bond out of nothing?

It must be my illusion. I turned my eyes away and was pulled out of the classroom by Ke Yuchen

The hand that once gently clasped mine has now become detestable.

I like him, but I also know that if he truly liked me, he wouldn't make me wait so long for a definite answer. Xiao Che's voice trailed off, becoming softer and softer. This week, I didn't answer his calls, nor did I reply to his messages. When I encountered him at school, he didn't speak to me either, and he was always surrounded by Jiang Mei, the two of them laughing as if they were incredibly happy. I started to feel very angry, but later I thought that being jealous and angry like this was just foolish.

Please do not let me see that lonely expression on your face, and do not let your pupils reflect me. Clearly, the one you liked the most, the one you were closest to, the one you always cared about, and the one you always accompanied was not me in the past, is not me now, and will not be me in the future

"Fine, if you insist on forcing me to tell the truth..." Zhong Shenyan lightly slapped the table, successfully capturing my attention: "I am not intentionally trying to make you uncomfortable in front of Zeng Ting. Don't you know that jealousy is the best catalyst for love? I have been scheming to let Zeng Ting know that you are also liked and cared for by someone, which is why I sacrificed my own dignity. If it weren't for you, Song Qingxi, I wouldn't have taken action at all"

Xiao Che gently rested her head on my shoulder: "I haven't really gotten close to Lu Wen yet, but I have to start learning to leave him. Isn't that ironic?"

Going to see them will surely bring me more joy than singing with a microphone

Hey! What is going on! Just recently, the serious Yao Xiaoche told me, "I have really thought it through; some things are simply better not to happen." The resolute Yao Xiaoche stated, "In this world, even the things we like the most may one day turn into things we do not like, or something we like even more may appear." The earnest Yao Xiaoche asserted, "Therefore, some things are indeed more correct not to happen." Could it be that all of this was just my imagination!

"Do you really know what you are doing?" The voice that echoed belonged to Ke Yuchen

Just be a regular classmate, attend classes with him, and occasionally go home together. Simply existing in the same space, secretly observing his smiling face.

Xiao Che suddenly stopped, causing me, who was talking to Zhong Shenyan about a junior girl I had recently taken an interest in, to completely lose awareness and bump into the back of Xiao Che's head.

I stopped in my tracks at the doorway and firmly grasped Zhong Shenyuan's wrist

During the time when Ke Yuchen was tutoring me, Zeng Ting remained in the classroom. Although he was continuously writing something unknown, he made no sound, seemingly causing no disturbance to either me or Ke Yuchen, and there was no need for concern.

On the night of my birthday, she who patted my shoulder firmly and said we should work hard together, and I, who decided to give up and no longer have any intersection with Zeng Ting, both chose not to take that step, choosing not to expect certain joyful reasons. In fact, it is because we are not the ones who can make choices; we can only wait for choices to be made for us.

There are things in the world that one can do nothing about, even with all their might

So I just stared blankly at that name flickering, firmly engraving the flow of that name in my heart until it extinguished

Song Qingxi, happy birthday. Zeng Ting did not continue with Liu Ziyu's topic, but unexpectedly looked at me and expressed birthday wishes.

... ...

Zhong Shenyan habitually paid no attention to the faint gray marks on his cuffs stained by the dust from my fingers. Looking at me, he smiled sincerely and said, "I don't want to understand you this well either, but there's nothing I can do; it's just in my nature to be loyal."

Look, how simple it is, just two worlds

I just don't understand why you are angry. " Zhong Shenyin continued to lean against the door, arms crossed, but his gaze became sharp. "Is it because you are afraid that Xiao Che will suffer losses from Lu Wen again, or is it because Xiao Che's happiness highlights your solitude, making you feel lonely?"

"It won't work, you can tell just by looking at it." Zhong Shenyin picked up the amulet and placed it back into Xiao Che's hand.

What’s wrong?" He turned his head to look at me, "Not feeling well?"

Therefore, whether it is by default regarding a person like Ke Yuchen, or by employing deceptive means, or even allowing Zeng Ting to misunderstand, it is all acceptable. Because I have already recognized my own feelings, and I would rather be forgotten by him than be hated by him, it is better to establish a position in advance. This way, I can exist beside him with confidence and a sense of entitlement, without him thinking of me as someone who is "not very good" or as someone who toys with Ke Yuchen's feelings. Because I have already recognized my own feelings, and I would rather be forgotten by him than be hated by him, it is better to establish a position in advance. This way, I can exist beside him with confidence and a sense of entitlement, without him thinking of me as someone who is "not very good" or as someone who toys with Ke Yuchen's feelings.

I only realized now how painful it is to miss someone

I will leave with Ke Yuchen, and it is indeed to give myself a position.

I can't believe she actually blushed, avoided my gaze, and pretended to be shy!

Who knows if I will encounter Zeng Ting again, and unfortunately, Liu Ziyu is still there to accompany him? Recently, my luck has been continuously declining, and I feel like I am on the verge of being completely eliminated by fate

Although I am uncertain, I can still hold on for a while longer

Recently, it seems I encounter Zeng Ting far too often in both reasonable and unreasonable situations. Before I confessed my feelings to him, do you know how difficult it was to meet him even once? Why didn't you grant me the opportunity to run into him frequently at that time?

Even if 9.9 is greater than 0.1, as a friend, shouldn't you gently comfort me? Can't you occasionally show me a bit of warmth?

Get lost

It is her birthday. Zhong Shenyin casually placed his hand on my shoulder and extended an invitation to them, saying, "We have also strolled around enough, shall we go eat together?"

Oh. Retracting the fingers that had been gliding over the car window, I directly wiped them on the cuff of Zhong Shenyuan's white T-shirt. I squinted and gave him a smile that was utterly insincere, "Do you really need to know me this well?"

I believe it is important to maintain a distance from you, as getting too close to boys with too many embellishments is unsafe. Xiao Che calmly stated the facts

However, when Zhong Shenyan truly entangles with someone, he is far sharper and stickier than an octopus, making it impossible for others to break free.

In the past, I had yearned for and imagined the scene of celebrating my birthday with Zeng Ting.

"It can't be a ghost..." Xiao Che said softly, turning around to look at me

I do not wish to discuss any matters related to "Zeng Ting"; I took out my phone and found Ke Yuchen's number

Is it really that easy to retract the feelings of liking someone?

I am a senior, and I am still a male, so it is impossible for me to let you pay the bill. The words of Ke Yuchen carried an undeniable certainty.

We, you

Do not pay attention to him

Seeing Zhong Shenyin sitting next to Xiao Che, I felt a strong impulse to turn around and leave. However, upon further reflection, if anyone were to leave, it would be him, not me who is in the wrong.

What does it mean that this is not very good? What is unfair to Ke Yuchen?

Damn it, my chin is being held up by Ke Yuchen, and it doesn't feel like a non-ambiguous moment. Why did Sheng Ting appear in the classroom?

At the entrance of the school across the street lies another completely different world

The joyful moments have not been organized, and it is already too late. You said that the memories that belong to us can no longer continue.

Zhong Shenyan, I am speaking sincerely, friends are friends, but there is no need to sacrifice your private life too much. If you have made plans with the lovely Light Beauty Mei, then you should go

However, there is a significant divide between Zeng Ting and me, akin to the Chu-Han boundary, and we are unrelated to each other. He would be more than happy for us to never interact again. I suppose he came to the classroom to retrieve something, not expecting that I was currently receiving tutoring from a senior, striving to channel my frustrations into diligent effort.

I am also willing to believe that not cherishing me properly is a loss for Ceng Ting

It is outrageous

There is nothing much to say

The corners of his mouth have a very attractive curve: "Song Qingxi, have you ever thought about attending the same university as me?"

Recently, there has been a continuous and dense rainfall

He walked into the classroom, grabbed my wrist, and with an unwavering gaze fixed on Zeng Ting, said: "What are your feelings for her? Since you want to distance yourself from her, please do not come near her again. Whether she likes me or not is a matter between her and me. At the very least, I can assure you that I will not let her be unhappy."

A friend is someone who should be there like this, always present when comfort is needed—although he turned his body away in annoyance, evading my warmth

The one you took for yourself the last time you were supposed to give me the results...

The person I like the most is shopping with another girl. They have an incredible rapport, completely resembling a couple. They have made plans to dine with others together. They are "we," and I am "you."

Only after she walked far away did I respond to Zhong Shenyan: "It was during the conversation between Liu Ziyu and me, right? He wasn't looking at me."

... ...

Are you referring to ... ... Lu Wen and Yao Xiao Che holding hands?

Love is like this; it is never equal

I am precisely a person who is very indecisive and tends to evade when faced with making decisions

At least I will not be trapped in this world from which there is no escape, even if I run desperately, I am only running in circles, heading further in his direction

"Alright! When necessary, I will rush out to play the role of Xiao Che's boyfriend." Zhong Shenyan also had a look of boldness on his face

A thousand arrows pierce the heart

"Alright, alright, I still have a lifetime to slowly wear you down, and I will eventually earn your forgiveness." Zhong Shenyan truly appeared to be relieved, then poked Xiao Che's hand and said, "Are you and Lu Wen still enjoying the thrill of ambiguity? If the ambiguity lasts too long, it loses its novelty, so don't blame me for not reminding you."

Are you really angry?" Zhong Shenyin cautiously glanced at my expression

He simply walked over and sat down on the sofa opposite Xiao Che, his gaze sweeping past Zhong Shenyan as if he were transparent

It has not rung for a very long time. So long that when it finally rang, I was startled, but in the next moment, I thought that perhaps it was a malfunction in the phone's ringtone settings system

No day of peace

I no longer wish to escape, to conceal, or to hone my acting skills.

Is it good to throw someone like me, who loves you so much, into the cold, lonely situation of constantly being at odds with oneself, struggling in a tug-of-war with oneself

In fact, who cares

Moreover, the affection that Ke Yuchen expressed to me seems more like a form of consolation, or perhaps more like a joke, doesn't it

Xiao Che said that she has never truly gotten close to Lu Wen, yet she has to leave him, which is quite ironic. As for me, I have never left Zeng Ting, but I still cannot get close to him. Which situation is more ironic?

I raised my head, not holding back the anger in my eyes, and met Zeng Ting's gaze.

Suddenly, I thought of something and opened my hand towards Xiao Che: "Hand over that amulet!"

After their gazes met, I saw Zeng Ting slightly lower his head to look at Liu Ziyu, listening to her say a few words, and then he smiled and walked over to us with her

"Qingxi, are you alright? Xiaoche, are you also okay?" Zhong Shenyin was flustered, helping me massage my forehead while nervously watching Xiaoche, who was holding the back of his head.

Emotions? He smiled, "That boy today is the one you said you really, really, really like, right? He is indeed quite good-looking, very refined, but not effeminate, and he seems to have a strong sense of self. You have a good eye for this."

Then strive to make him like you

Based on my keen observation, he has recently been staring at you in a daze, appearing to be deep in thought. I feel that ... ...

I looked at Zeng Ting's back and took out my phone

Hearing someone call my name, I turned my head. Xiao Che was leaning against the back door of the classroom, looking at me, his gaze filled with understanding

Behind the glass, the rain is silent, yet it devours everything, boundless and infinite. On the transparent glass, droplets quickly gather, merge, and slide down, disappearing. I gently trace those marks with my finger across the transparent distance.

"Why not choose a cat?" I comforted Xiao Che, "Does Lu Wen know that you are allergic to cats?"

It is clearly Sunday

I gently nodded, extending my hand to slowly stroke her hair

That may be true... I couldn't care less if Zhong Shenyan is heartbroken, but I cannot ignore Xiao Che's sadness

Ke Yuchen has not said a word against me, do you all need to jump out one by one to speak up for him? What are your names? What is your relationship to Ke Yuchen?

"Yao Xiao Che, have you encountered a ghost?" I complained irritably, pushing away Zhong Shen Yan's hand that was rubbing my forehead. I didn't know how this guy had such great strength; I wasn't even hurt from the collision, yet he had rubbed it painfully.

I shook my head, hesitant to take out my phone. Because of a specific ringtone, which I had set myself—"The Most Romantic Song on Earth"

Are Lu Wen and Jiang Mei still together?

This is an important means of that person who stubbornly occupies every inch of my thoughts, leaving behind a slight gap of forgetfulness

Aren't you allergic to cats? I was surprised

Hmph, laughing so wildly and extravagantly, it is truly a miracle that Zhong Shenyin was not choked to death by himself

It seems that you have more experience than I do. In this case, you, I, and Zhong Shenyin can truly form a league of underachievers.

Forget it, I have already hit rock bottom today, otherwise I wouldn't have encountered Zeng Ting and Liu Ziyu. Shaking my head, with a spirit of heroic sacrifice, I pressed Xiao Che again: "Are you trying to make me unable to sleep tonight because of your attitude? Speak up!"

However, Zeng Ting is precisely such an existence—he has no intention of fulfilling my wishes in any aspect, from emotions to sensations. Therefore, not only did he not turn or change direction on his way to my seat as I had hoped, but instead, he stood firmly in front of my seat, his smile devoid of warmth

I took a detailed look at it; the light beige background is adorned with a few cherry blossom-colored accents, which is quite elegant: "What is this for?"

Because it cannot be Zeng Ting

I always feel a bit embarrassed

My heart raced uncontrollably, yet at this moment, I do not wish to connect, nor do I want to hear his voice

Oh, I apologize for the interruption, please continue. "Zeng Ting walked back to his own seat, took out a notebook of unknown content from his desk, and then began to write seriously.