Chapter 5

I looked at Zhou Han, who suddenly stood in front of me smiling, and smiled back in disbelief

I believe that all the events in my life began to uncontrollably unravel not after a specific point, but after Zhang expressed the desire to see me. I have finally come to understand that any event has the potential to derail at any moment.

Lian Qiu did not join us; she wanted to give the three of us an independent space to reminisce about our few childhood memories. However, she does not realize that by doing so, it leaves my heart without a suitable place to rest.

Where to continue: "Don't think that I don't understand you. You are the kind of person who is very strong in life but feels inexplicably afraid when sleeping alone, who demands perfection in relationships yet feels that no one is trustworthy, hoping for someone to treat you like a princess and to stay with you until old age. Therefore, you need to find a handsome, witty, humorous, talented, and responsible man who is loyal. " After saying this, he proudly lifted his eyes and said, "That's exactly the kind of person I am."

I smiled and said, "Is there such a thing?"

A hint of something always caught the corner of the eye, which added a touch of enjoyment to the dinner we shared that evening

I almost spat out the imported rice

On that day, a small accident occurred.

I responded with a sound

However, I do not like men who are self-righteous and narcissistic, like you

I waved at her, and Zhang Xiang ran over, grabbing my hand and shaking it incessantly. Ever since I met Zhang Xiang, she has liked to shake my hand like this, and it hasn't changed to this day. She is someone who will always remain a child in front of me, and this makes me feel that Zhang Xiang is closer to me than A Ke and the others.

Cai Yunhe has always been a person who is not good at expressing himself. His ability to casually joke in front of the Spring Festival indicates that he feels a sense of closeness to it. His willingness to speak to me in such a manner suggests that he considers me a confidant. This makes me feel that the thirteen years of aimless longing have finally found a resolution

"Xiao Yi, if you have time, you should go back and take a look. You are truly heartless; you left without even coming back to see us. If we don't come, when will we meet again?" Cai Yunhe suddenly said this.

Cai Yunhe interjected: "I remember now, there was indeed such a thing, because that music box had a good cry during the spring."

The first thing I did when I returned home that day was to take out the music box that Zaochun had once fought with me for. By the time Zaochun came, it had already stopped playing. Now, inside it lay the letters I had never had the chance to give to Cai Yunhe and the nonsensical verses. I threw the box and its contents into the fire. I am a person who distinguishes clearly between gratitude and resentment; for things that are no longer present or that I have decided to let go of, I wish for them to be completely clean.

Cai Yunhe's words were originally a joke, yet none of us laughed. It seemed like a long time had passed when Zou Chun sighed and said, "Xiao Yi, if you hadn't left back then, I really don't know what we would be like now"

Zou Chun shot a half-shy, half-annoyed glare at Cai Yunhe and said, "Just remember this clearly!"

Cai Yunhe also took a big sip of tea and then jokingly said, "I knew that Xiao Yi would be leaving soon, so I took care of her."

The next day, I got up early, originally planning to go to work, but I received a call from Lian Qiu. She said on the phone that Cai Yunhe and the others would be leaving tomorrow and asked if I wanted to accompany them. Naturally, I agreed.

I looked up at him and said, "I only regard him as a younger brother."

I originally intended to take them to a nearby scenic area, but Zong Chun mentioned that she had already spent the whole day with Lian Qiu and was quite tired. Therefore, I took them to a tea house at the foot of Xuelang Mountain to enjoy some tea

Feeling a bit unable to eat, I pulled Akko, who was gradually becoming somewhat displeased, to go find some entertainment programs

"Yidian is a good child."

It seems to be the case. I said as if I had just remembered, "Do you remember the rainy days when we went to school together? Both I and Zaochun always forgot to bring an umbrella, and then the three of us would share Yunhe's umbrella to go home.

Zou Chun and Cai Yunhe both expressed their gratitude

Wherever she laughed, she said: "In the future, find a boyfriend based on my standards; my type should suit your taste."

Cai Yunhe, feeling excited, continued: "Of course I remember, you have always known how to be unreasonable with me and Xiao Yi since you were little. You insisted on having that music box, and when Xiao Yi wouldn't give it to you, you cried. Xiao Yi had no choice but to lend it to you for two days, but in the end, you returned it to Xiao Yi after more than a month, and it came back as a broken box."

Originally, I was unsure of what to give them. I thought my brain cells were dividing rapidly, and in the end, I even considered that giving them Renminbi might be a better option. However, this morning, as I passed by a crystal shop, I suddenly saw this crystal music box and decided to buy it. I imagine that if Ake or Yidian knew about this, they would surely laugh at me, as giving a music box as a wedding gift might seem quite outdated. Nevertheless, I still purchased it; I made the decision to buy it the moment I laid eyes on it. I imagine that if Ake or Yidian knew about this, they would surely laugh at me, as giving a music box as a wedding gift might seem quite outdated. Nevertheless, I still purchased it; I made the decision to buy it the moment I laid eyes on it.

Zou Chun held the sparkling music box, admiring it beautifully, and I am very pleased that she likes it so much

The train has arrived, and unfamiliar passengers or returning travelers surge out from the platform. I wait anxiously, only to be unexpectedly recognized not by Zhang Xiang, but by Zhou Han.

To my surprise, Zhang said in her email that she would come to see me from Nanjing. She actually came.

He continued, saying: "But it is not suitable for you"

As we stroll in spring, while opening the music box to let the gentle music play, I say: "By the way, Xiao Yi, do you remember that once when we were young, you said you wanted to celebrate your birthday, and you specifically asked Yun He to give you a gift? Later, he bought you a music box. Ah, do you still remember this?"

Suddenly, after we finished speaking, we all burst into laughter, forgetting a little about the departure with Ake

I smiled, unsure which muscle on my face was being used, and then said: "Isn't it good now? I just occasionally miss the bamboo forest of my childhood. Seeing you all so happy now makes me feel happy too, truly.

Later, whenever I think back to this illness, I feel that it was truly worthwhile, because this illness made me realize many tangible things that exist. For instance, I can no longer long for Cai Yunhe, I truly have an older brother now, and I genuinely understand a little what it means to be a child. Just like the blue sky and white clouds, even though I have never paid them much attention, they still exist steadily and calmly.

The reason for choosing this place is that there are vast bamboo forests at the foot of Xuelang Mountain. I often come here alone to drink tea and admire the bamboo groves. I have mentioned that Xishuangbanna is to me the most beautiful visage of the other shore, which always compels me to gaze at her, even from a distance. This bamboo forest invariably reminds me of Xishuangbanna, evoking memories of the beautiful bamboo groves we used to traverse joyfully in our childhood.

Only I and He Chu remain in the room, which instead makes me feel much more restrained

I picked up the barley tea and took a big sip.

I sat at the front, sipping fragrant barley tea, unsure of how to begin. Suddenly, I recalled the wedding gift I had bought for them when I left home in the morning

Zhou Han said: "I really didn't expect to see you right after getting off the train station"

What a coincidence. I am here to pick up a friend, and she is on the same train.

Thus, I wrote an email to Zhang Xiang to inform him that my first love has come to an end. I believe I can only confide in Zhang Xiang, as A Ke cannot comprehend my feelings, and I am also concerned that Qiu's heart is too full to accommodate mine, so I chose to tell Zhang Xiang.

As Zheng was speaking with Zhou Han, he suddenly heard Zhang Xiang's voice coming from a distance: "Xiao Yi, I am over here!"

However, I finally understand that having even a faint hope to hold onto is fulfilling. In this way, you will feel the authenticity and value of your own existence. Once all hope is lost, you drift aimlessly in the void, which is more difficult to face than any form of suffering

Ake was originally frowning as he looked at me, but upon seeing He, his brow immediately relaxed. I noticed this subtle detail of his smile, yet it made me feel both proud and a sense of loss

Wherever there are such clever people, they naturally understand a bit of hostility towards them, and thus they always deliberately say the four words "we are younger". I know that he regards a bit as a child.

I went to the train station to pick up Zhang Xiang, standing among a crowd of people looking around, waiting for that person who could recognize me at a glance to arrive. It has been nearly a year since I last saw Zhang Xiang, and I truly miss him.

I took out the music box and handed it to Zou Chun, smiling calmly, and said: "This is a wedding gift for you."

I remember this very clearly, because every time, the area that gets wet on me is larger than yours. " Zaochun said, giving Yunhe a happy reproachful glance from the corner of her eye