Chapter 1

She did not know how long she had been walking, having seen quite a few large trucks, small trucks, sedans, RVs, and even bicycles along the way, all of which she felt were not quite suitable. If she were to die, it should be in a more spectacular manner; she had to do justice to herself. Shouldn't she find a better car to crash into? A person only has one life; crashing into a Volkswagen Honda would be a huge loss. Moreover, the car owner would be wronged, suddenly facing a suicide case without any reason, suffering from a lifetime of bad luck.

Youjia was crying loudly, her face smeared with mucus and tears, while the man beside her displayed a look of disgust.

You Jia shouted loudly as if she had exhausted all her strength. She released Yu Tao, directly grabbed her bag, and got up to run outside

But Youjia did not give him this opportunity

The man scoffed, as if he could not be bothered to continue speaking with her, took a glass of wine, and turned to walk away

Even if I continue to walk, there is no hope; it would be better to die.

The bartender seemed to be afraid that she might really lose her mind, so he held her back and persuaded her for several moments. You Jia knew he meant well, but she felt that her resolve was already rather weak. If he continued to talk, she would probably lose her courage again, and she did not want to hear him ramble on, so she simply left.

Youjia thought miserably

You Jia thought to herself, I am already dying, what does it matter if it is dangerous or not? If I am not afraid of death, what else is there to fear?

Bartender: "... ... Hello!"

Bartender : `` ... ... ''

Parents have divorced and remarried, each having their own families and children. Especially, they are one of the relatives who can be considered dispensable. After breaking up with a boyfriend of many years, she now finds herself without a job. The most unfortunate part is that her salary has mostly been spent on her boyfriend, leaving her bank account with only a three-digit balance.

Uncertain of how far she had run, she felt the vibrant neon lights whizzing past her, her heart pounding violently in her chest. Only then did she stop, standing in an unfamiliar city, surrounded by strangers. Unable to contain herself, Youjia squatted down and cried out loud.

Hello, is this your first time here?" the bartender greeted her

Youjia feels that her life is muddled and unclear, with a bleak future ahead

Exhausted from the day before, she spent the night online like a ghost, browsing through a multitude of posts on emotional forums such as "Why am I so good to my boyfriend yet he cheats?" She couldn't even recall when she finally fell asleep

You are right! However, Youjia actually smiled, but because tears were still on her face and her nose was red from crying, this smile somewhat affected the appearance of the city

However, I experience storms every day, and perhaps because it has never cleared up, there is no such thing as a rainbow.

I am such a failure, I am a loser in life, wasting air while alive and wasting land when dead! She has given up on herself, so I am preparing to commit suicide

The bartender was taken aback; many people come to the bar to drink away their sorrows, but this place is somewhat more upscale. It is relatively rare to encounter a tasteless drunkard like Youjia here.

Last night was Christmas Eve, and she was supposed to have a wonderfully dreamy evening. However, everything changed completely when her boyfriend, in a tone as mundane as buying cabbage, proposed to break up with her

Xiao Jia, you are a very nice person, but after careful consideration, I believe our personalities are not quite compatible. I cannot hold you back...

I saw you having dinner with Tina from the marketing department last time, is it...

Her boyfriend interrupted her: "That is a work requirement! Why are you always overthinking? This is why I dislike this aspect of you. You are usually quiet and introverted, keeping everything to yourself and not sharing with me. There is a lack of communication between us..."

The man next to Youjia said casually: "Do you want to know why? Let me tell you."

Only by experiencing the storms can one see the rainbow

They are college classmates, having met in their junior year and started dating.

... ... Why? After several seconds, Youjia finally realized that she should have asked this question herself

You have a great idea, thank you

The only thing she wants to do right now is to commit suicide

Yu Tao, I have been in a relationship with you since my junior year, and now we have been together for a full six years! When we visited your parents last year, what did your mother say? Your mother mentioned that housing prices in Beijing, Shanghai, and Guangzhou are currently high, making it difficult to buy a house. Although you earn a decent income now, your family's financial situation is average, and coming up with a down payment is a struggle. She suggested that we rent a place after getting married. I said it was fine; I can understand Yu Tao. We will work hard together and take our time. I believe that one day we will be able to realize our dreams

Then, with a bang, the world fell silent

"So your conclusion is that we should break up? You have made up your mind and will not turn back because of my pleas?" she asked

In the past, she looked down upon those who chose to end their lives, believing that their willpower was too weak to overcome even the slightest adversity. However, now that such matters have befallen her, Youjia truly feels that she can no longer endure.

Just a few minutes ago, she received a call from her mother, who had been divorced from her father for many years, informing her that she was getting remarried and asking her to make time to attend the wedding. Meanwhile, Youjia's father had already cheated, divorced, and remarried many years ago.

Yu Tao is a computer science major who has a great passion for gaming, being well-versed in various online and single-player games. After graduation, he joined a well-known domestic IT company as a software development engineer responsible for a particular game. Over the course of four years, Yu Tao rose from an ordinary programmer to the lead programmer of the game studio, earning a monthly salary of over 30,000.

And today happens to be the day of the weekly meeting

Youjia's volume was not small, and those around could hear it. The gazes of everyone looking at Yu Tao began to change to something strange

At that moment, a sneer was heard

"Give me a glass of wine." You Jia was not in the mood to chat with him

She just ordered a cappuccino, and the sweet aroma of coffee instantly emanated from her.

Xiao Jia, I feel that we are not suitable for each other, truly. You see, although we are both in the IT gaming industry and work at the same company, our positions are different. Every day when we go home, we find it hard to connect in our conversations. Have you not noticed that the differences between us are growing larger...

This commotion caused many people around to turn their heads and look

We are not suitable for each other

However, the other party seems unwilling to let her go, and provocatively taunts her: "A single woman like you who comes to drink away her sorrows is either heartbroken or unemployed. But looking at your pathetic state, it seems you are suffering from both."

You should find a better one sooner rather than later

Can get drunk

As a result, I overslept this morning

The bartender smiled wryly: "Mr. Bai..."

The man ignored him and continued to speak incessantly: "Let’s talk about your temperament, haha, there’s no need to doubt it, you simply don’t possess such qualities. Even someone from the countryside who just arrived in the city has more character than you! You blame the man for breaking up with you? Wrong! He just feels that you have already aged and lost all appeal! Do you understand what appeal is? From your figure to your appearance to your attire, what is there for a man to like? Just looking at your miserable state, it’s clear that you must have been working like a horse for men, and in the end, all your money is spent on them. What do you call this? From your figure to your appearance to your attire, what is there for a man to like? Just looking at your miserable state, it’s clear that you must have been working like a horse for men, and in the end, all your money is spent on them. What do you call this? This is called being cheap! Spending all your time on men, and you still have the energy to work? If I were the boss, I would fire you too. Tell me which company you work for, I want to go and present a banner to your boss to commend his wise decision!"

With the wine entering her sorrowful heart, she was no longer as introverted as usual

The bartender once again attempted to persuade her, as he felt that if this continued, the young lady would likely be driven to despair and consider ending her life

"Another cup for me, please." She disregarded everything else

Youjia sniffed, and at that moment she felt truly silly

Alright. The other party seemed to be aware that she was in a bad mood, and did not pester her with endless questions, instead turning around to prepare drinks.

When You Jia entered the conference room, she immediately saw the supervisor's face, which was darker than the bottom of a pot

The man nodded slightly, surprisingly in agreement: "Sure, this decision is very wise, you have finally come to your senses, go ahead, go ahead!"

Why did he break up with me? Tell me, why! She couldn't help but lean on the bar and cry loudly

Youjia raised her head and stared at him in a daze

Yes. Yu Tao fell silent for a moment before responding

The result is that this final kick has encountered an unexpected turn of events

Well, a Land Rover is still a Land Rover; even without fish or shrimp, it will have to do

Then she heard the supervisor say: Some people, relying on their status as long-term employees and their seniority, come in late and leave early, disregarding company rules. No wonder they have remained in the position of ordinary team members for so many years without progress. ... In the past, out of consideration for my colleagues, I turned a blind eye to this, but I will no longer tolerate such violations of discipline in the future ... BLABLA

Accompanying his words, You Jia's heart had already turned completely cold.

You Jia decided to find a Maserati or a Lamborghini to crash into, as such individuals typically have assets worth over 100 million. They are either second-generation rich or the parents of second-generation rich individuals, causing minimal trouble to the other party while valuing their own life.

The tenfold disparity leaves one speechless, yet upon closer reflection, it is evident that Youjia's educational background is not lacking. Although she started as a customer service representative, her colleagues who joined at the same time have already been promoted to customer service supervisors, with some even transferring to other departments. While it is not to say that their salaries surpass Yu Tao's, they certainly earn over ten thousand.

Ke Youjia spends her time taking care of her boyfriend. After work, she is busy buying groceries and cooking. She tries to avoid working overtime whenever possible and looks for opportunities to sneak away during departmental training. She feels that although she and Yu Tao are not yet married, they will eventually take that step. Both families have met, and they are living together; they are just one step away from obtaining their marriage certificate.

However, he did not realize that before You Jia entered this bar, she had originally intended to commit suicide

I was wrong, I can change! You Jia raised her voice, enduring and enduring, yet still unable to suppress the sob in her tone: "What do you think is wrong with me? I can change. We have six years of feelings between us! It is six years, not six months!"

You Jia, who had never been to a bar before, should have felt very awkward, but now her heart was like dead ashes; she cared about nothing anymore, and thus lost her previous timidity. She walked through the elegantly arranged booths and directly sat down in front of the bar.

You Jia turned her head and discovered that a man had appeared in the seat next to her at some point.

Yu Tao was stunned, unable to react in time even after being slapped.

It is not that she does not want to feign calmness; the issue is that she could not have anticipated the occurrence of this event beforehand

When you first started your internship, your salary was even lower than mine, only 800 yuan a month for a whole year, yet I never complained. I used up all my living expenses at home, and then relied on yours. For the sake of our future dreams, I couldn't even bear to use cosmetics or buy new clothes. After work, I was busy buying groceries and cooking, just so you could have a good meal when you came back from overtime. And now you tell me that there is a generation gap between us

This bar might really be a bit upscale. When Yu Jia came in, she didn't pay much attention. It was only when she swiped her card at checkout that she realized the two drinks cost nearly two thousand. Yu Jia's savings card was insufficient, so she could only use her credit card. She thought to herself that since she would be dead tomorrow anyway, she wouldn't even have to pay back the credit card, which was a benefit in itself

Yu Tao was both embarrassed and angry, glaring at You Jia as if he were about to explode with rage

We have come this far together since university, I have devoted my youthful years to you, and now you tell me that we are not suitable for each other, are you joking with me

You Jia arrived at the city's most famous bar street and casually chose a bar that looked somewhat pleasing to her and walked in

What kind do you want

Youjia earnestly sought his opinion: "So which method of dying do you think is better? How about swallowing sleeping pills?"

Then I was late

She decided to indulge herself a little before she dies

She closed her eyes, focused on the approaching vehicle, steeled her heart, and dashed out.

Everyone looked on in horror as You Jia slapped the notebook on the table against the supervisor's face, listening to her calmly say: "Ren Jing, I have tolerated you for a long time, but I no longer need to endure it, and you need not worry anymore, I resign"

The bartender had no choice but to turn around and prepare a cocktail for her

As soon as the words fell, You Jia grabbed the cup of water on the table and splashed it at the other person. Yu Tao let out a cry of surprise, unable to dodge in time, and was drenched from head to toe.

He had never seen You Jia like this; in his impression, she had always been a gentle and soft woman, even when arguing with others, she seemed to be acting cute. But now, she was simply like a different person

You Jia is from the Department of Chinese Language and Literature. She does not like playing games at all, but she wants to be with Yu Tao, so after graduation, she joined the same company as Yu Tao, working in the customer service department. She started as a regular team member and is still a regular team member today, earning a monthly salary of over 3,000.

Seeing her cry softly, Yu Tao averted his gaze, avoiding eye contact with her

Youjia had consumed two glasses of wine, and her head felt dizzy and heavy. She believed she had gathered enough courage to commit suicide, so she got up to settle the bill and left.

After finishing a glass of wine, You Jia still wanted more. The bartender said, "This type of wine has a strong aftereffect. For someone like you who is here for the first time, I would advise against drinking too much; otherwise, it could be a bit dangerous for a single woman."

After leaving the bar, You Jia wandered aimlessly, searching for a suitable place to crash and a fool to take advantage of

Yu Tao felt very embarrassed, stood up wanting to escape, but You Jia grabbed his collar and slapped him again

Then the time returned to today

Man: "Swallowing sleeping pills and opening a gas canister is just too weak, don't you think? If you're going to die, choose a more spectacular way to do it! I think a car accident would be quite good, a loud bang and your head bursts open, and you're gone on the spot. But you have to aim well; it has to be a hard enough crash. If you crash and don't die but end up with a disability, that would be a huge loss!"

The man looked up and down, clicking his tongue: "You should take a look at yourself in the mirror. T-shirt and jeans, how many years ago was that a trend? Even your grandmother wouldn't dress like that anymore, dear. Just take a casual stroll down the street and see if there are any women messier than you. Even a fifty-year-old aunt would look better than you, right? Your hair looks like dry grass, has it not been cut in hundreds of years? Honestly, I can't stand women like you who think they look pure just because they tie their hair in a ponytail. You should take a look at your horse-like face; pulling your hair back just makes it look longer. When standing next to a horse, no one can tell if the horse is you or if you are the horse!"

Youjia watched her boyfriend's mouth open and close, her mind a blank.

At that moment, a car approached head-on. She focused her gaze and saw that it was a Land Rover, specifically the most expensive model, the Range Rover, with the best configuration costing nearly 3 million. She had also heard that some wealthy individuals do not prefer to drive Lamborghinis but rather enjoy driving Land Rovers.

Thinking of this, You Jia felt that it would be better for her to die.

She did not want to pay attention to the other party, so she turned her head away

"You are right, I have lost both my love and my job, but I do not understand! We have had six years of feelings between us, six years, not six days, nor six months, but six years!"

This is why Youjia is now wandering the streets

However, her luck seemed to be somewhat poor; there were already very few cars late at night. She had been walking for a long time without seeing a satisfactory one. Youjia felt that her feet were a bit tired, and if she continued walking, she would probably lose the courage to commit suicide. If she failed to die, there would still be two thousand yuan in debt waiting for her tomorrow

Youjia was struck by a painful memory, and the tears that had originally stopped flowing suddenly burst forth as if a dam had broken.