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I could no longer tolerate it and interrupted him, you illiterate! If you lack knowledge, you should watch more television! To be as if one has lost their parents means to be in deep sorrow over the death of one's parents; you are truly in such a state, your entire family is in such a state!
It is of no use; tears cannot be suppressed at all
When I woke up, before I had a chance to clearly see my surroundings, I was struck hard across the face by Xu Zhijun, causing stars to dance before my eyes. I blurted out, "What the hell, are you crazy!"
He and Lin Yizhou, both of whom are quite particular, surprisingly agree on the choice of perfume, perhaps because this brand originally started with tobacco, which embodies a certain masculinity and strength.
I am a heavy burden, perhaps you cannot bear it at all
The night breeze lifts the curtains, and I confront my own imagination in the pitch-black room. Time rushes backward, and who is that girl wearing a white shirt, with bright eyes and a stubborn expression?
After speaking, the white door closed tightly with a "click" sound
I walked over and pulled the cigarette from Xu Zhijun's lips, taking a deep drag. That day, I truly carried a determination to face death.
As if sensing something, she, with tears streaming down her face, also saw me and Xu Zhijun. She hesitated for a moment but still did not speak to me. After a brief moment, she turned and left.
I heard a scream, and soon I realized that the scream was coming from my own throat. I looked at him with hatred, asking why, why, why, why did you provoke me!
I wiped my tears from my face fiercely with my hands wrapped in thick gauze, there is nothing to cry about, since I am not dead, I will live well. I need to eat, only then will I have the strength to attend the funeral
Disregarding my strong objections, he forcefully pulled open the curtains, and the winter sunlight streamed into the room through the floor-to-ceiling glass windows. Tiny specks of dust danced in the light, and from the height of the 21st floor, the vast and boundless Xiang River came into view
The difference is that Lin Yizhou used cold water, while Xu Zhijun used an echo
I do not know the specific location of the funeral, nor do I have the inclination to investigate further. Xu Zhijun is a gentleman; since he has asked me to accompany Lin Yizhou on his final journey, he must have arranged everything properly. Therefore, when he threw a set of black formal attire in front of me and told me to change into it, I was not surprised at all
Furong Road is always a scene of vibrant vitality, where bus drivers maneuver their large buses down this spacious and flat road as if they were tanks. Inside the crowded buses, every individual bears a face dulled by the trials of life
He stood by the window, with his back to it, and in the backlight, I could not see his expression clearly, but I could feel his slight trembling, a tremor born of rage. His tone was rarely cruel and cold: "So you wanted to die, but didn't succeed. Isn't that a pity? However, even if you had died, I would still retrieve your body and present it to your mother, then tell her that her daughter died in a tragic love affair.
I reached out my hand to touch his face, that face I once loved deeply, now shattered. I began to speak in a fragmented manner, it is all your fault, why won't you be good to me, if it weren't for your stubbornness, we wouldn't be in this situation now
Xu Zhijun steadily supported me, and then with his strength brought me before Lin Yizhou's relatives, bowing respectfully
Outside the window is the timeless and vast night, and I see Lin Yizhou sitting in front of me, his eyes filled with resentment
When I heard the words "suicide for love," all the strength in my body vanished, leaving me without even the energy to refute him. I clutched the bed sheet tightly, trying to appear a bit more composed.
In that moment, I recalled those who once lingered around Lin Yizhou, the warblers and swallows, and my tears flowed even more abundantly
I quietly received his gaze
Perhaps one day, on the street, in the mall, a middle-aged couple who brushes past me is his parents, yet neither party will know that this girl once had a passionate past with their son
He glared at me angrily through the rearview mirror, Cheng Luoxun, can you not look so mournful...
In the time that followed, he, with a sullen expression, did not make a single sound again
He glanced at me without speaking, but instead reached out his hand to embrace me from behind, his chin resting on my head, and his gentle breath brushing against my ear.
I have not seen Lin Yizhou's parents, whether in the past as his girlfriend or today when I come to bid him farewell for the last time, I have been unable to catch a glimpse of his parents.
All harm has yet to take the stage
Xu Zhijun stood by the window, his silhouette exuding an infinite sense of loneliness
The funeral of Lin Yizhou
Who says there are no tears when one is sad, I only feel that all the moisture in my body is secreted from the tear glands
The gaze of the evening dawn is always so indifferent and cruel, coldly looking at me, without uttering a word
In the quiet room, there was no sound other than the sound of our breathing; I silently shed tears, choked up and unable to utter a single word
He kept looking at me, and as my hand was about to touch his face, his appearance gradually changed, slowly transforming into the face of dusk and dawn
After returning from the funeral, I collapsed onto the bed, like a vegetable that has wilted from dehydration
I bit my lip tightly and nodded.
At this point, he wisely fell silent
Just as my eyes were filled with tears, a voice that was both incredibly familiar and yet utterly strange, and at the same time made me feel profoundly disgusted, reached my ears. I lifted my head to look in the direction of the sound, and indeed, this voice that sent chills down my spine could only belong to her—Feng Miaoqin
After a long silence, Xu Zhijun approached me, smoothing my tangled long hair. His tone softened slightly as he asked, "How can you attend the funeral looking like this?"
He remains completely still, does it provoke you? Not even afraid of death, are you still afraid of provocation?
He has always been such a prudent person, except for that slap he gave me.
The memorial photo of Lin Yizhou hung in the center of the hall, and the moment I laid eyes on that face, I collapsed. Past events replayed in my mind like a rapidly rewinding film, and my knees buckled, nearly causing me to fall to the ground
Xu Zhijun asked softly, "Was it she who did that?"
He remained silent, without responding
Various vessels navigate across the river, each with its own direction and trajectory
Zhou Muchen, take a careful look at me, it is all because of you that I fear love so much, and feel so weary of it
I shot him a glance and decided to dismiss his words as nonsense
Two days later, sitting in Xu Zhijun's car, I felt as stiff as a zombie. He drove while observing me through the rearview mirror, and I said expressionlessly, "What is there to look at?"
I smelled that familiar, subtle fragrance on him
After speaking, he stood up and left the room. Before closing the door, he turned back to look at me once more. The funeral is the day after tomorrow. If you still wish to see him off, it would be best for you to eat something in the next two days
I am a heavy burden, perhaps you cannot bear it at all
Then, he finally spoke a word, and the tears I had been trying to suppress for a long time came crashing down.
Xu Zhijun helped me find a corner to sit down. In my sadness, I noticed many girls who were just as heartbroken as I was. Despite the cold weather, they insisted on wearing only a pair of black stockings on their lower bodies, and their ability to withstand the cold truly made me admire them.
I made an effort to speak to him in a calm tone: "Your Excellency, I have long told you that I am different from the girls you have known in the past. I am not one of those healthy, bright girls who grew up in a wealthy, warm environment. Unlike them, I do not have many relatives or friends to whom I can express my feelings. I have only one love; either I do not give it, or if I do, it is entirely.
He sighed, Cheng Luoxun, I am your boyfriend and also your savior. Since the day you were rescued two days ago, you have treated me like this. I have not held it against you, and I even personally drove you to...
I still speak with the tone of a living dead person, a gentleman takes revenge, even if it takes ten years.
That was me four years ago
Thinking of that heavy slap, I instinctively touched my face, and this action caught his attention. He chuckled again, perceiving my thoughts: "Are you thinking of retaliating?"
Her skin has yet to be baptized by tears, and her fingers have not been tainted by tobacco.
He let out a dismissive "hmph" from his nose, indicating his disdain for my unfriendly attitude
Echo. Xu Zhijun. He is the enduring echo formed by all the beautiful things in my brief life
I took a cigarette out of my bag and was just about to light it when Xu Zhijun shouted at me: "Do not smoke in my car!"
Thinking of these six words, tears surged forth once again
Occasionally, alongside the buses, luxury cars whiz by, carrying not only middle-aged men with protruding bellies and shiny faces, but also young women with various sunglasses perched on their noses and exquisite makeup. While waiting for the red light, they take out a cigarette designed for women and take a couple of stylish puffs.
Their age and mounts always evoke a flurry of thoughts
He said: "On that day when I carried you back from the cold river water, I had only one thought—to bring you back, to make you happy, to give you happiness, although I may no longer have this opportunity."
Upon arriving at the entrance of Lin Yizhou's funeral venue, all the courage and strength I had painstakingly gathered along the way completely dissipated. I tightly grasped Xu Zhijun's hand, and he evidently magnanimously set aside our previous minor grievances, conveying to me with his eyes: It's alright, I am here.