Section 4

Since he knows, it has saved me some trouble, yet I, a person with such a bad character and habits, cannot feel happy at all. A pang of conscience? The pure little angel in my heart just peeked out, only to be beaten back to heaven by the black little demons! To hell with this pang of conscience!

In fact, I do not regret kissing him at all, but I regret kissing him with my eyes closed

I tiptoed over and knelt by the edge of the pond, gazing infatuatedly at this face

How did you discover it

No," I said, "only you, you are the truth

I was taken aback, my mind was still muddled, and my brain's CPU was overheating and slowing down. Just a moment ago, I could have bitten him in anger, but seeing him like this, I felt a pang of sympathy. I waved my hand and said, "Ye... Ye Zhen... I’m not blaming you, really. If you provoke me, I would be too happy to care, truly... But it’s all me provoking you. Just now, it was also me who suddenly did that to you, I don’t blame you at all..." I was at a loss for words, speaking incoherently, just wanting to quickly smooth over the hurt on Ye Zhen's face. He is so strong, yet has never shown any weakness in front of me.

This pond is beautifully constructed, with steaming white mist rising behind the rockery, resembling a paradise on earth

My heart begins to ache, gradually starting to burn, causing me unbearable pain

Three simple words, light yet powerful, carrying a slight heaviness. In that moment, my mind became instantly clear; Ye Zhen knows! He has no time for any buffer, he knows! Moreover, he is digesting this fact with a calm, silent, and unrecognized demeanor

I am sorry. Ye Zhen's smile faded suddenly, and a look resembling loneliness appeared on her face. "I am sorry, I should never have agreed to your request. I thought that by calling Zhang Mian with the *picture* book, it would not matter since it was just the two of us. This is not your fault; I clearly knew you had such feelings for me, yet I still enticed you. It is my mistake.

"It's nothing!" I gritted my teeth, "I brought this upon myself!"

Ye Zhen had not spoken for a long time; he was contemplating this possibility, which seemed unlikely and difficult. Yet, in the end, he almost exhaustedly uttered a single word: "... ... Good"

So I leaned in and wrapped my arms around his neck: "It's alright, you still have me. God may have closed that broken window for you, but this door to the broad avenue has always been open for you here."

Before Ye Zhen's mind could react, his body had already instinctively moved to the side, causing the flower thief to plunge headfirst into the hot spring water. It was scalding. His limbs felt as if they were wrapped in fire, and water rushed into his nostrils, leaving him trembling in pain. When Ye Zhen pulled me out of the water, I coughed for a while, tears and mucus streaming down my face

Ye Zhen was stunned for a moment, her tense face relaxed, and she chuckled: "You also know that you brought this upon yourself, indeed, quite self-aware."

"Ye Zhen, stop loving Zhuo Yue! She has someone else outside, I saw it! Don't say it's her brother or uncle! I don't believe it, she has someone outside, she is not worthy of your love, Ye Zhen, she does not deserve you!" I said fiercely, "You can choose not to believe it, because I have reasons to slander her, I..."

I am somewhat resentful towards him: "What right do you have to make decisions for me! What kind of life is considered normal and happy is something I decide for myself. Do not attempt to brainwash me with your worldview; I cannot change you, and you cannot change me either."

Ye Zhen was startled, "Is everything alright? Are you feeling very uncomfortable?"

If you want to love someone, then love them; there are not so many infatuated men and resentful women in this world. Ye Zhan did not deceive me, but his words hurt me more than a beating. Every time someone makes me feel bad, I also find a way to make others feel bad, but I never direct such malice towards Ye Zhan. This time, I couldn't hold back; perhaps it was Zhuo Yue, who is showered with three thousand loves, that caused me to lose my composure.

Ye Zhen has a clean and neat face, with long black eyelashes and bright eyes that shine like glass submerged in water under the sunlight. In my younger years, his face alone would leave me mesmerized. Now, seeing him in nothing but swim trunks, with a well-proportioned and flexible body, his long, fair legs always wrapped in pants, stirs a strong desire within me. Noticing that no one is around, I lean in and kiss Ye Zhen's lips.

Because the pool is not large, it is suitable for couples and a few friends to chat and drink tea, so when there are people, others do not come to join the fun. I wrapped myself in a bath towel and walked barefoot on the snow, shivering from the cold. When I walked behind the rockery, I saw Ye Zhen soaking in the water, her head resting on the edge of the pool, quietly meditating.

Ye Zhen did not push me away, he needs comfort, and he knows this is meaningless. Today, being born in the Year of the Snake, I will inevitably cling to him. In fact, he is just a child, pretending to be so indifferent, yet there is still a layer of redness on his face, and his fingers tremble restlessly, very subtly. I know this because I am also shaking.

Heaven, I am hanging on the almost completely naked Ye Zhen through my thin swimsuit, which must appear to others as a passionate and alluring scene. By the time I feel shy, it is already too late. Zhang Mian stands by the pool with a few eggs cradled in a towel, and even his dark face is flushed. He cannot advance or retreat, knowing that there must be a reason for this; with Ye Zhen's character, it cannot be so. Thus, he looks up at the vast falling snow and forces down a mouthful of dark blood.

However, the three words "I love you" have been spoken by me not a thousand times, nor even eight hundred times, and they hold no lethal power against Ye Zhan's impenetrable defenses

But the more I spoke, the more he looked at my smile with a bitter expression. I knew he wanted to comfort me, yet the shadow on his face grew larger. In the end, his smile resembled a cry, as he desperately tried to console others. Frustrated, I held my breath and buried myself in the spring water, crying helplessly.

I am extremely angry, yet he is still able to laugh

Indeed, it is true that feelings can be cultivated, but love cannot be controlled

It is not related to Yue'er. She wants me to stay in City B after graduation, but I cannot agree, so she proposed to break up, and I could only comply. She is right; she is already twenty-six years old. Even if she can wait for me for three years, that man will not wait for her for three years. Moreover, there are too many changes in three years; she is not an idealist and only believes in what can be grasped. Ye Zhan slightly relaxed her furrowed brows and smiled gently, saying, "That man is quite good; he is a friend of their president, thirty-three years old, has been busy with his career and has never even dated. He is well-acquainted, and Uncle Zhuo and Aunt Zhuo are also very satisfied. This is good; I won't hold her back either."

The steam from the hot spring pool made his face flush, his eyes were strikingly dark, and when he glanced over, it felt as if countless little claws were scratching at my heart, making me restless and eager.

"I do not deserve your indulgence, nor am I as great as you think." Ye Zhen lowered her eyes, becoming serious. "Tang, if you truly love me, I genuinely believe that. However, love alone is not enough for two people to be together. When Zhang Mian's girlfriend left him, was it really because she no longer loved him? If she truly did not love him anymore, would she have called him in tears? When Zhang Mian's girlfriend left him, was it really because she no longer loved him? If she truly did not love him anymore, would she have called him in tears? A girl spends her best youth in solitude, unable to see or touch someone who will not wait for her downstairs to deliver flowers, fetch water, accompany her for meals, or give her a goodnight kiss before lights out. Moreover, this is just the beginning. Since one chooses to become a soldier, one must be prepared for sacrifice, and so must their partner. Many girls think they are ready for this awareness, but in the end, they discover that loneliness and solitude are powerful; they can make a person irritable and desperate, consuming love. Moreover, this is just the beginning. Since one chooses to become a soldier, one must be prepared for sacrifice, and so must their partner. Many girls think they are ready for this awareness, but in the end, they discover that loneliness and solitude are powerful; they can make a person irritable and desperate, consuming love. In the end, only regret and resentment remain. Tang, you should not have to bear this; a girl like you should be cherished, finding a man who can be by your side to live a normal and happy life.

Guo Guo

Ye Zhen knows what he wants, and unfortunately, I possess this same confident talent. Our goals are equally clear and defined, leaving no room for negotiation and no gray areas

I have heard these words at least eighty times, if not a hundred, and under Ye Zhen's tireless brainwashing, I have become completely immune

In an instant, a white light passed through my mind, he said something, how marvelous, he said something

Is it really that difficult to fall in love with someone

Ye Zhen interrupted my incoherent harsh words: "I believe."

We have broken up, just a couple of days ago. That man is quite good; he has pursued her for a long time. I have met him; he is a man worthy of lifelong trust and - books. Ye Zhen pushed me away a bit, touched his neck, which was bleeding, and glared at me fiercely, "Do you have a grudge against me?"

"I am sorry, Tang Guo, perhaps you are right, your happiness is being with me, but unfortunately..." Ye Zhen's long eyelashes fell down, trembling slightly, "Unfortunately, the one I love is not you, so I can give you nothing, and this makes me feel uncomfortable"

I lunged forward and wrapped my arms around Ye Zhen's neck, biting down hard on his throat without mercy, the slightly sweet blood spreading in my mouth. Ye Zhen let out a groan of pain, his body stiffening, yet he did not push me away; instead, he gently caressed and rubbed the back of my head.

I was at a loss for words, trembling all over as I lay by the edge of the pool. This extreme contrast of cold and heat is unbearable. If you were worried about me getting hurt, why didn't you just let me kiss you earlier? It wouldn't have killed you. Now you're pretending to be a good person. I was furious, and after a while, I shook off Ye Zhen and sat in the pool, glaring.

If Ye Zhen could cry, it would be better; that expression in her eyes, which smiles while enduring pain, makes me feel very uncomfortable

You are truly adept at punishing yourself by using the mistakes of others. After a while, Ye Zhen pulled me out.

"Deservedly so, who told you to anger me?" I feigned strength on the surface, desperately scratching the bottom of the pool with my fingers: "That night you were clearly doing well, how could you be so fickle? Are you blind, to like that kind of woman!"

I suddenly understood where the pain in Ye Zhen's eyes came from

I looked up at him with tear-filled eyes

Ye Zhen blushed and awkwardly turned her head to the side: "What are you looking at? Go away, it's so hot."

The water of the hot spring is truly comfortable, like the house that resided in the belly of the beautiful woman from the countryside before I was born twenty years ago

"Try to like me, please give me a chance, don't reject me..." I exerted some force, "I beg you, Ye Zhen."