05

I only know that I cannot see Xia Zixuan, there is no one to argue with me, and no one always calls me an adult in a strange tone... Just thinking about the future being like that makes me extremely sad

Why did he suddenly disappear

I squatted at his doorstep and began to cry loudly

Did he misunderstand something, which is why his face turned pale in an instant

Isn't he doing these things because he dislikes me

I haven't heard them mention this. It seems that the house across the street has already been sold, and the new owner will be moving in a couple of days. You shouldn't come here looking for him anymore.

A profound sorrow emerges from the depths of my heart, suffocating me and leaving me breathless

Something slipped down from the corner of my eye and disappeared into the pillow, leaving my heart feeling heavy and anxious

I stood alone and dazed at the entrance of Xia Zixuan's home, gazing at the tightly closed door.

Since that day, I have not seen Xia Zixuan at school again. At first, I thought he was intentionally avoiding me, until I could no longer resist and went to his class during a break to look for him. It was only after being informed that he had not been to school for several days that I realized something was amiss

I never imagined that the look in his eyes, filled with sadness and nearly despair, would be the last exchange of glances between us.

I smiled politely at the aunt across the door and asked, "Aunt, hello, I am looking for my classmate, his name is Xia Zixuan. Do you know where he has gone?"

Perhaps he will pretend that nothing is wrong first? In that case, I just need to cooperate with him and also pretend that nothing has happened

If they are friends, why am I unable to easily utter the word "friend"?

Later, we were no longer in the same school, and the time we spent together decreased. Occasionally, we would meet once on the weekends, and I could only sense that he had become much more reserved. He no longer deliberately sought to trouble me as he did before, but I also did not feel that he liked me very much! All I knew was that he had become increasingly inclined to oppose Xu Song. Regardless of what suggestions Xu Song put forward, he would reject them without hesitation.

Gradually, I feel as though the air I breathe has become increasingly thin

Throughout the entire afternoon, I was not in the mood to pay attention in class. As soon as the class bell rang, I packed my bag and rushed out. In my haste, I accidentally bumped into a classmate who was also eager to leave, and I did not even have the time to apologize before continuing to rush outside

Moreover, it is not just that; Xia Zixuan has not appeared at all today

The more I reflect on it, the more I feel that this matter was handled very poorly

Zixuan moved out with his mother a few days ago

Here I stand now, yet I feel not the slightest inclination for it

We are friends, aren't we

I really, really, really dislike this about you

"What? They moved?" This sudden news left me in shock, and I couldn't help but quickly walk over to the other side, eagerly asking at close range, "Do you know where they moved to?"

Xia Zixuan, do you hate me now? ... Hate me so much that you would part ways with me in that manner ... ... You asked if my heart is made of stone ... ... Xia Zixuan, how could anyone's heart be made of stone?

At that time, I did not understand why I felt so sad, why the knowledge that I would never see him again caused me such pain

I cannot understand why he would say that to me

What should I do? What should I do?

The closer I got to the school, the more my heart tightened. For a moment, I even wanted to turn around and run away, like an ostrich, back to my home

Was that day's "goodbye" actually meant to convey "never see you again"

A thousand words and ten thousand phrases linger in my heart, yet I do not know what to say to him

In the flower field, Xia Zixuan, Xu Song, and I were all in our childhood forms, joyfully chasing and playing in the sea of irises

At this moment, I can only feel that a corner of my heart has been hollowed out by someone

It was a vast field of purple irises

I do not know when, in a state of confusion, I sank into a dream.

Xia Zixuan enjoys placing flower petals in my hair and on my clothes. When Xu Song sees this, he gently and carefully removes them petal by petal. In my dream, I am running, Xia Zixuan is making a fuss, and Xu Song is smiling faintly

I took out my phone to call him, but a mechanical female voice came through my ear: "Hello, the number you have dialed is turned off, please try again later"

I still remember that he would often call me a big fool back then

I continuously rehearse in my mind the scene of meeting Xia Zixuan

Recalling the situation in the evening, I couldn't help but grab a pillow and press it against my head: "Luo Xiaohan, oh Luo Xiaohan, you are truly a big fool, a big fool!"

I lay in bed tossing and turning, yet Xia Zixuan's words continued to linger in my mind

Xia Zixuan, how can you leave in this manner after saying that to me

The lady across from me closed the door right after speaking to me

It is quite strange, once upon a time, right here, I was caught late by Xia Zixuan, who was furious and stamping his feet because he refused to show any leniency. At that time, I thought to myself that I must catch him once as well

After having breakfast, I slowly walked towards the school while pushing my bicycle

Seeing me up so early, my mother remained silent for quite a while, believing that the sun must have risen from the west today

Should I not say "I'm sorry" to him? Have I messed up many things? Have I once again hurt him by relying on my ignorance?

I will certainly feel sad and helpless as well

As expected, I suffered from insomnia

The desolate expression on his face when he heard me say the three words "I'm sorry" keeps resurfacing in my mind

I parked the car in the garage and absentmindedly put on the armband as I walked to the school gate

His final glance left me feeling as if I had a fishbone lodged in my throat, and I became increasingly agitated, as if countless caterpillars were crawling all over my body

But what if ... ? ... What if it is not like this? What should I do?

It was clearly a very happy dream, yet I woke up crying

I have always been carefree, able to sleep off any troubles, no matter how big they are, but this time I have not been able to recover

He has disappeared

Fifteen minutes later, I stood at the entrance of Xia Zixuan's home, constantly contemplating what I would say to him when we met.

I feel a sharp pain in my chest, and it feels as though my throat is being tightly squeezed, making it difficult to breathe.

At that moment, the door across from Xia Zixuan's house opened, and a middle-aged woman poked her head out, looking at me with a puzzled expression, and asked, "Young lady, who are you looking for?"

In that moment, before my brain could react, tears had already overflowed.

Since I met Xia Zixuan, he has been constantly provoking my anger... catching grasshoppers to scare me, putting caterpillars in my pencil case, inexplicably snatching my hat and throwing it into the water, hiding my homework notebook...

Classmates passed by one after another, but Xia Zixuan had yet to appear

Whether it is the mischievous Xia Zixuan or the now composed and restrained Xia Zixuan, who handles matters with a measured approach, I find being with him very easy, and I even feel that even if one day the sky were to fall, he would help me bear it. But why, when Xia Zixuan asked me what he means to me, do I hesitate and find myself unable to answer

I feel very anxious and uncertain about how to face Xia Zixuan, or rather, what I should say when I see Xia Zixuan, what kind of expression I should have, and what tone I should use to speak to him... I do not know any of these things.

I pedaled desperately towards Xia Zixuan's house, not daring to take a moment's rest along the way. I was afraid, afraid that if I stopped, I would never see Xia Zixuan again

It is still early, yet I can no longer fall asleep. I got out of bed and slowly got dressed and washed up

However, I stood at the door and knocked for a long time, but no one came out to respond.

However, in the end, I did not do so, because I am the president of the student council, and furthermore... Today is my duty day

In my heart, whether it is Xu Song or Xia Zixuan, they are both my best friends