Chapter 4 has become self-deprecating

I stood there, staring blankly at Lin Ran's back. When I saw Lin Ran lower her head, I knew she was looking at my message

While walking, I happened to pass by a pharmacy. I said to Lin Ran, "Wait for me for a moment, I am going to buy a condom." After saying this, I felt a bit regretful; it was already quite good that Lin Ran was willing to let me go home with her, so how could she possibly wait for me outside

Thinking about Wu Di still staring at me, Lin Ran, I feel quite uncomfortable

Lin Ran's home is close to the school. On the way, we parted ways and returned home separately. After getting home, I started looking for money, as the allowance given by my family is insufficient for my expenses. Sometimes, when I manage to save a little money, I end up spending it all on food.

I sent a message to Lin Ran, asking, "Lin Ran, is it okay if I brush my shoes?"

Without saying much, fearing her sarcasm, I directly entered the pharmacy. It was quite embarrassing to go into the pharmacy, and the pharmacist kept asking me what medicine I wanted to buy, but I stammered and felt too shy to say. After hesitating for a long time, I finally said in a very low voice, "I would like to buy a set."

His tone made me unhappy, so I did not speak to him

After waiting for a while, Lin Ran sent me a message saying, "You need to clean your shoes properly." From Lin Ran's message, it was evident that Lin Ran was somewhat impatient.

After being kissed once yesterday, I became a bit addicted. As soon as I entered the room, I embraced Lin Ran and started kissing her. After a while, she said to me, "Wait a moment, I need to take a shower first"

I replied to Lin Ran's message, saying, "I will take my time to brush up on it." After replying, Lin Ran did not respond to me.

His voice was quite loud, and many classmates turned to look at us. Lin Ran also turned to look at us, which made me feel quite embarrassed. I was a bit angry; I thought my deskmate was also being annoying, and I wanted to give him a good beating

I smiled and shrugged my lips, "If we are going together, then so be it, what's the big deal."

Lin Ran furrowed his brows, feeling neither too satisfied nor too dissatisfied, his expression was neutral

Lying in bed, I tossed and turned while looking at the messages Lin Ran sent me. It was only when my eyelids grew heavy that I fell asleep. This sleep was very sound and deep.

I know the Wu Di he mentioned, Wu Di is quite impressive in our grade and has several friends around him. There are not many delinquents in our school, just a few who often skip classes. Wu Di is not a delinquent, but he is also not an ordinary person

I felt a bit embarrassed to make a purchase, so I just looked for a while longer, I said softly to Lin Ran

After returning, my deskmate kept staring at me. During the break, I was holding back my anger, but I couldn't help but get mad, "Are you out of your mind?"

Rubbing my eyes, I feel quite happy. If only Lin Ran had cared about me earlier, how wonderful that would be. Even if she could simply say a word to me, or refrain from mocking me in front of other classmates at school, how great that would be

The entire morning passed just like that. When school was dismissed at noon, her uncle did not come to pick her up. Seeing that there were not many people around, I decided to follow her. Lin Ran noticed that I was following her and her expression was somewhat displeased. Perhaps she felt embarrassed; she was reluctant to walk with me. Noticing that she still disliked me, I deliberately slowed my pace and walked behind her.

I wanted to hit him, but he is taller and stronger than I am. I was afraid of losing and embarrassing myself, so I didn't take action. I deliberately tried to intimidate him, saying, "You better watch out, you'll regret it after school."

Lin Ran excels in her studies, is attractive, and comes from a wealthy family. At school, many people like her. When they see me walking home with Lin Ran after school, my deskmate naturally envies me. I think to myself, she is my Lin Ran, and there is nothing wrong with us going home together. However, our classmates are unaware of the nature of my relationship with Lin Ran, as she does not want others to know that we are relatives.

"What are you talking about? Who do you think is sick? Don't you like Lin Ran? Are you afraid that Lin Ran will find out?" My deskmate looked at me with disdain. He spoke particularly loudly, and all the surrounding classmates were looking at us.

I regret it quite a bit, regretting that I usually do not save some money. My family gives me 5 yuan a day, and the money I have in my pocket is simply not enough to buy a set. If I want to buy a set, I will have to wait until tomorrow to do so

During class, I felt a bit bored. These past two days, I have been taking advantage of Lin Ran, and my hands are a bit itchy. In class, I wanted to test Lin Ran to see if she could go to a secluded place with me after class. I can only have her in the evening, and I am a bit impatient for the night to come.

As I walked out of the pharmacy, I unexpectedly found Lin Ran waiting for me in the shade. It was hot, and Lin Ran was fanning herself in the coolness. Looking at her expression, she seemed a bit impatient

Seeing Lin Ran's message made me quite unhappy. My family only buys me two pairs of new shoes a year, and I would also like to wear clean brand-name shoes, but my family cannot afford to buy them for me.

I was feeling down all afternoon because I couldn't afford the set. In the evening after school, Lin Ran and I walked together to her house as agreed.

"Haha, you are still messaging Lin Ran, huh?" my deskmate asked me in a lukewarm manner.

The lights in the room have been turned off, and I stared blankly at the two messages Lin Ran sent me, my eyes slightly moist. In all these years, this is the second time Lin Ran has actively messaged me. In all these years, this is the first time Lin Ran has shown concern for me. The empty message box contains only three messages, all sent by Lin Ran in the past two days.

Lin Ran is well-liked, but she does not have a partner. There are quite a few boys who like her and want to pursue her. My deskmate told me this, and he might also have feelings for Lin Ran. He is deliberately trying to intimidate me, hoping that we do not get too close.

The next morning, after finishing breakfast, I was worried about getting my shoes dirty on the way to school, so I specifically took a car to school. I got up a bit late, and when I arrived in the classroom, Lin Ran was already there. When I entered the classroom, Lin Ran deliberately looked at my shoes. The shoes are not a brand name, and no matter how much I clean them, they cannot shine like good shoes.

My deskmate noticed that I had been looking at Lin Ran, and he called out, "Hey, what are you looking at?"

"Go ahead, I'll get it for you." The pharmacist finally understood what I was saying. The pharmacist was a woman, and she seemed to be considerate of my embarrassment, not looking at me for too long. She took out several boxes of condoms and asked me which one I wanted to buy. After glancing at the prices, I realized the cheapest one was still 7 yuan, but I only had 4 yuan on me. Sighing, I said I wouldn't buy any and then walked out of the pharmacy

What? I didn't quite catch what the person selling medicine said

Lin Ran's attitude towards me remains indifferent, but just seeing her two characters brings me great joy. This is because Lin Ran has never replied to my messages before. After sweetly gazing at the message Lin Ran sent me for a while, I felt that my deskmate was stealing glances. I shot him a glare and put away my phone

It's acceptable

I want to buy a condom, I said to the seller of medicine. After saying that, my face turned red beyond measure

When I had a quarrel with my deskmate, I deliberately glanced over at Lin Ran. Fortunately, Lin Ran did not hear us talking; otherwise, I would have been so embarrassed

I ignored him and did not want to speak with him

"Hehe, are you trying to pursue Lin Ran? How did it go? You didn't take advantage of the situation yesterday, did you?" My classmate looked at me with a half-smile, their tone laced with jealousy

In the morning, we had two classes, and during the second class, we did some exercises. While doing the exercises, I kept looking at Lin Ran's back. I wanted to talk to her and chat for a while. However, Lin Ran and I have already become accustomed to being strangers, and we are unable to speak to each other

I put down my phone and went to the bathroom to clean my shoes seriously. After cleaning the shoes, I washed my school uniform, both the shirt and the pants. I thought to myself, when I walk home with Lin Ran after school tomorrow, I must not let Lin Ran feel embarrassed to walk with me.

Let's do it tomorrow, I have something to attend to today and cannot do it. I lack the money to buy a set, and I feel completely unconfident when I speak. Looking at Lin Ran, who is panting softly, I lower my head and dare not look at her, feeling particularly inferior

I walked out, and Lin Ran impatiently asked me, "Why did it take you so long to come out"

Seeing that I was not talking to him, my deskmate casually remarked, "Wu Di from Class 6 has liked Lin Ran for quite a while, so be careful. You wouldn't want to get beaten up for not having a partner."

"Damn, I'm just waiting for school to end." My deskmate looked at me with a dismissive smile, and several classmates around us laughed. They knew that I was just an ordinary student, with no capabilities at home, and I had no special talents myself. What I said was purely bragging.

Before going to bed, Lin Ran sent me a message, "Bai Hao, please change your shoes when you go to school tomorrow. The shoes you are wearing today are too dirty, and my classmates will laugh at me for being with you."

When I reached a place where there were no classmates nearby, I approached Lin Ran and asked, "Shall I buy the set now?"

"If you want to buy it, then just buy it. Why are you asking me?" Lin Ran said, looking straight ahead at me

I only have that one pair of shoes, how can you expect me to change them?" I replied to Lin Ran.

On the way back to my seat, my deskmate asked me, "Bai Hao, why did you walk home with Lin Ran after school yesterday? You are quite impressive."

"Let's go," Lin Ran said, giving me a glare.

After returning home, my parents were back. After dinner, I locked the door to my room and did something inappropriate with Lin Ran's underwear